沒有,

我永遠沒有資格去話人,

因為我自己都有做同樣既事,

我有何資格??

個個係自己既細妹,

我竟然會成日同佢比較,

我竟然會成日吃醋,

我仲算係人!!

係, 我根本冇辦法同佢比.

我樣唔夠佢靚,

眼唔夠佢大,

唔夠佢人見人愛,

唔夠佢受歡迎,

唔夠佢識得哄人開心,

唔夠佢識得用把口,

仲要連公開試既成績都唔夠佢高,

我有咩資格去比?

比咩?

連我D所謂"朋友"都將我同佢比,

所謂既"親戚"更加唔洗講.

我真係好失敗,

成日要去活在比較既世界,

仲要成日自己既心被好多野所動搖.

我究竟出生在呢個世界係為左咩?

就連我看重既人都唔理我喇,

我可以點?

生存係為咩?

為比較?

人比人,

比死人,

我終於明白呢樣野.

嫉妒,

真係好可怕,

就連我自己, 都驚左自己.

話人地有問題?

其實最有問題既係自己.

究竟要去到幾時,

我先至可以唔洗再聽其他人既閒言閒語?

要等到幾時我先可以明白活在當下既道理?

要等到幾時先可以解脫所有.

心病還需心藥醫,

問題係由自己所發生既,

我怨人都冇用,

係自己既問題, 就要由自己去解決.

希望有一天, 我可以看破所有,

我可以將呢D不快睇作為我發奮既動力,

或者將呢D不快一笑置之,

只係而加時間尚早,

我仍需要活在呢D不快之中...

where are you, vitali?

i just hope you are safe in your own place, in your own world.

 "Distance - by Christina Perri ft. Jason Mraz"

我真係好想同你分享我既一切,

開心既, 唔開心既,

所有野我都想同你講,

但奈何你卻偏偏唔會熱烈地回應我,

我唔知道點解我會咁執著關於你既一切,

就算你唔肯俾我知...

MAILBOX, 我會不斷去CHECK有冇你既新電郵,

關於你既國家既所有新聞, 我會即卡停止我所有既工作去聽, 去了解,

但呢D只有我單方面去做,

而你呢?

你可以選擇唔去覆EMAIL,

你可以選擇唔去聽或者留意關於我既一切,

我以為你會變,

我以為我可以令你變,

但原來唔得,

你仍然用你既方式去生活,

你仍然唔會有衝動去了解我既一切,

咁點解我仍然咁傻去等?

想要你既關心,

你要去到過幾個禮拜先肯覆我, 問我既近況,

究竟我邊度得罪你,

要我等得咁唔開心.

how long can we keep this up?

it has been two years that we know each other,

you said you want to change, 

but i dont think you have changed,

the goal, "our" goal, can it be achieved in the future?

i am worried that even the goal is achieved,

it cant be the happiest thing happened in my life,

or even worst.