2009.1.2
Alas…how should I recall the failure of computer exam today?
I was so low and lost as I’d ever been…I know it was all my fault.
I should had been preparing as well as I could even not having been sleeping!
There was no way back though…I couldn’t help blaming myself…//
The morning after, the classes went out for lunch,
Lim was the last leaver except me.(Thx for the consideration)
minutes later, I sat in silence without anyone around, closed my eyes with tears running down my cheek, powerful emotions of worries, fears, regrets and self-disappointment stirred at the same time.
Ivan came in my class before long, not having his lunch, just for keeping me company…
Having been given the will to hold on,
I began to re-adjust my thinking; take the pressure off and stop beating myseld up.
I ended up trying not to lose the opportunity to redeem the loss through letting my computer teacher know my situation at this term.
He promised that I still have chances to re-adjust my results,
heard his words, my worries began to trickle away and I promised to try my best!
I must remain, work through the issue I wanted to escape and I will overcome!
Failure is not an option if I don’t give up. I intend to win in life.
I have to make it this far, and I’m going to make it all the way!
Although I have experienced failure of life countless times, I feel gratify as well.
I find that I am not alone, not ever was. I know I am surrounded by love.
Regardless a msg, a smile, an encouraging word or a loving heart,
I did feel gratitude to you, who gave me the words and the fdships.
Don’t worry, I can handle it, I can make it through!
2009.1.3
How exciting today it is!
I can not imagine the downs and ups of my spirit undergone.
Guess what! I'm uplifted by the great news---my computer teacher told me today...
he ensured that my computer result won't be less than 95!!!?
for I have to take part in three competitions about computer...
(HAA,,that seems to be a bit crazy, but anything never without value for I can make it through now!
See! I overcome again! I'm not all talk!)
(thx Sally, thx Ivan, thx myself!)
It’s my sister’s two –year-old birthday.
We, the family of four, went to 駿景 for lunch, as well as for a simple celebration.
Not much do I want to add…Just…Happy birthday to my dear and good luck to my next week! So do my fds…
2009.1.8
今日係考試ge第4日…本來諗住考完晒試先寫ga…
唉..為咩?小事一件…
今日考eng,遲左落去, 你地巳經走晒…(down..真係好down…)
小事la..又咪未試過…(是我太遲join你地..是根本不同路!?)
唔想諗na…無必要..唔想寫na…好無謂…
那些那些的小事,都只我一個人的事..
忘了吧…大事等着我呢…
“a fd to all is a fd to none…!”
2009.1.10
The exams’ day is finally over today,
well if I would say sth after the whole,’okay’ I might say but not as well as I’d expected.
Just forget it anyway!
Wow~my goodness the second term is finally today!
Exciting? Ye~~~that's for sure~
It’s colder and colder these days and I migth end up getting up by 12a.m 2moro! Haa,,
Since I’m totally relax today, it’s time for me to recall this half a yr and make a little concludsion on my dairy.
Let’s say during a traumatic period in these days,
I seem to have experienced many difficult trials in my life.
I’d learnt how to overcome and conquer that I flet great for myself.
That is one thing and the other thing I want to mention is the days after Ivan and I got back the fd’ship between us, we sometimes got along with each other as well as in the past S1(18).
Not a time did I think much and I just let it be. Every action that u perform every time,
I can feel that u were trying to take more care of me, encourge me and give me strenght…things are always unpredictable, aren’t they?
Can we be the best fd as in the past then?
It’s no longer a question to me now,
it’s no use caring about such a question anymore,
and I won’t fool myself one more time again.
I can live without u simply u’r just a fd of mine,
I don’t need to care of a promise u said to me, nor the past I’d been hurted.
Let’s turn back to yesterday after exam, Kevin was about half an hour late to show up,
anyway they were just waiting for him, and so was I.
I tried to open my mind to new ways of looking at the same old matter.
It’s not ezi that I felt disappointment to them,
but at the same time I enjoyed the fd’ships when I was among them that I felt I was not alone, nor ever was,
then I told myself,’that’s enough’
Forgot to mention about my new class S3(1),
the classmates in S3(1) are so lovely and active and enthusiasm that I am admired, loved and respected by almost everyone.
This half of year, I do feel happy and I should enough…
I should have a more view of my own life, not to be unsatisified by others all the time,,
Take the time to sip me coffee, and it’s the way I am!
2009.1.15
考完試到依家,日日都几充實,
可能因為要買野準備番江西,所以每日都有有野做,
仲有書睇la.英文學la…嗯..同之前想像中ge假期有d出入.
想像中ge基本上係同fd一齊咁la..畢竟最後一年…
不過呢几日都係自己過,感覺還好na.我懂得享受自己,
可能好耐未咁放鬆過…好耐未享受獨處ge宁靜.真係好自在,好free..
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今年過年,巳決定了回鄉(江西),
19號飛機,今次一去就去上半個月.
呼..我好懷念以前期盼回鄉的心情..
還有對澳門那些友兄們不捨的感覺..
2009.1.18
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尋日派成績表na! 我意常的淡定.大概心知有數.
成績,無我想像中好..不過名次(全級)又無我想像中低..
枝比我想像中高,肥甘比我想像中低.
北京地區的大學.選擇還是挺多的.
ivan全級第二,希望佢去到清華la..
前几日睇番08年ge日記..真係發覺自己無時無刻都係到變..
好唔容易..變到依家咁...
突然想將高二到依家ge日記同d fd分享…
可惜回首那過去後..現在又是另一番感受...算了吧.
听日要飛na…未來ge呢兩個星期,我把它當作一段’適應’的練習…
離開那百感交集的澳門..不久將來,要正式離開你地---my fds.
到時的一別…沒有人能保證什么…
幸好明天的一別..只隔半個多月…
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