SuMmEr百合花

 
I'm Jen Chan i'm who i'm!

2007 年 8 月 30 日  星期四   晴天

 

 

i been crying a lot today 感動

  

i been crying pretty much everytime i tell my friend about how i might not comes back and the most that hurts the most are my cuz are satnding on the bitches side and i'm so confuse cuz idk what to do i just want to be leave alone i'm confuse ass mutha fucker i need help and i know this makes mike so upset but what can i do to change this situation agrue more and can't concentrate at school NO.. i'm nto gonna let it happen i won't let u step all over me like a pieces of dirt and there's no way i will listen unleast u will do waht u promise..and u always read my secrets and i'm the not honor person i think ur and there's no way i will obey u cuz ur just a nasty bitches no matter how u won't let us see each other we'll always be stuck together and be so strong and drive urself crazy cuz u thinking ways to separate us and i mean it the more u hurt me the more i get stronger ur beating my physical but never my spirit this is what ur husbadn taught me when i was at basketball when i can't play at all..this is what u taught me and i will learned from it..no matter what.. mike and i will be stuck with each other so much cuz we're stronge and we're meant to be ur driving us nuts but i know we can do it and when we get marry ourr relationship will be better than u and ur husbadn cuz i know we won't agrue at all like u yelled at ur husband cuz.. we both will be understanding each other more and i don't even think that u and ur husband can even read each other minds as much as ours and i don't think ur relationship is strong as ours cuz the things that we have to go through is much toughter than urs and it just makes us stronger.. mike and i been through jealousy, love more than u can ever be, and most is we won't dead if we don't see each other for awhile i bet u can't do that and here's a thing u called me a cwhore when ur the one that always taught me that i can't sleep with a man till i get marry u and ur husband slept together when u guys didn't get marry yet si sin't even say that i'm a whore look at the mirror BIOTCH! well i love ya mike.. a lot and i know we can do it and i mean it cuz we're meant to be

刊登時間︰2007-08-30 11:40 PM  [ 訪客留言(0) ] [ 編輯日誌 ] [ 分享至FACEBOOK ]


2007 年 8 月 25 日  星期六   陰天

 

 

i have a wonderful dream 愉快

  

i had a wonderful dream that mike came to h.k. and he came to my house and suprise me and everything else it was a really good dream and especially i felt his kiss it was real i know it was real cuz it was the feelings when his lips touched mine and it makes me smile and i can't wait till i see him again i will give him a hug and a kiss..=) or he will do the job but when will be the next time i will see him hoping for soon !! =) i cna't wait till be his bride and when i walk down the church and holding my daddy's hand and be JENNIFER JAKALA!! when will this come true in like 9 years.....!! can't wait so excited..

 

    that's me <--- haha ^^ I LOVE U MIIKEsally..l.getting marry wit JACK

 

this is my wedding gown when i'm marrying mike

刊登時間︰2007-08-25 11:36 PM  [ 訪客留言(0) ] [ 編輯日誌 ] [ 分享至FACEBOOK ]


2007 年 8 月 21 日  星期二   晴天

 

 

haven't talk to mike for a while 不安

  

i haven't talk to mike for a while and

i'm starting to worry abt him taking all the pressure in by himself and

not sharing it with me i just want to be there and listen to stuff that bothers him

I LOVE U MICHAEL

i want u to be strong but i want u to share ur feeing too

so don't hide everything from me

cuz i can feel it u rememebr our heart is connected

i love my brother we were playing dougeball at my living room

awesome i love it

i accidentally hit his little friend

Oh well.. he loves it liek mike loves it too wink wink JK

well i can't wait till go to gold coast hotel with all my brothers

it would be fun

i really have to talk to kenneth cuz i know hes been upset since i came back

well i love u but i have to read so i ttyl

hope to talk to u soon sweetheart I MISS U

and if i talk to him i think..he will at least feels a bit better

刊登時間︰2007-08-21 07:32 PM  [ 訪客留言(0) ] [ 編輯日誌 ] [ 分享至FACEBOOK ]


2007 年 8 月 20 日  星期一   晴天

 

 

i love my dad 驚訝

  

i love my dad cuz he loves me more than he loves phillip and it makes me laugh

刊登時間︰2007-08-20 07:33 PM  [ 訪客留言(0) ] [ 編輯日誌 ] [ 分享至FACEBOOK ]


2007 年 8 月 19 日  星期日   晴天

 

 

i'm happy 愉快

  

mike was laughing at me again or the words that i says and he start to be cracking up

when i'm cracking up so is both way

dad onces said that i have the best smile in the world

that i can makes other smile when they're depress to the ground

and mike agree with his future father in law

gee i never knew i had a good smile..

dad said when i smile and laugh it makes him happy i wonder does that makes mike feels the same

love is so weird i have to get a 90 ave or else mike can't come to h.k.

SAT scores about 2000 hopefully i can do it cuz i really want to be with mike next summer

since i can't this summer

espeically the BIOTCh is looking for a scapegoat to take out her temper

well hoping i can

please god help mike and me out cuz we're very looking forward to it

and it would be the times we can spent with each other since college will be bothering us

a lot and stuff so hope things work out

i will never forgive the BIOTCH

but i will try cuz being mad at someone makes myself upset too

and it makes me to the depress jen chan

where's the happy jen chan

that is loud and happy and smile all the time no matter what?

i need to find that jen chan back cuz this jen chan is not me and i don't like it

and o believe not much of my friends like this version of me

cuz this one of me is a killer and where's the angel jen chan?

i love you michael thomas raphael jakala

 dating you was the one thing that i never regret of doing in life

and i will never regret EVEN if we broke off

i woudl never regret giving u my first kiss, the guy that holded my hand andgoing to prom with

I will just never be regret.. I LOVE U and i mean it much

刊登時間︰2007-08-19 10:08 PM  [ 訪客留言(0) ] [ 編輯日誌 ] [ 分享至FACEBOOK ]


2007 年 8 月 18 日  星期六   晴天

 

 

life 愉快

  

daddy picked up mom and me the same time AMAZING

i made the dinenr for all 4 of us and at least no one has dead yet

and i'm happy hehe ^^

well i'm practicing to be jennifer jakala

and when i'm cooking horriblely u will have to eat it

and even if it doens't taste good u will say is the most delicious thing u ever ate in life

so that'swhat i'm saying i'm a boss and ur my tester

lolx =) i love u michael thomas raphael jakala

刊登時間︰2007-08-18 10:50 PM  [ 訪客留言(0) ] [ 編輯日誌 ] [ 分享至FACEBOOK ]


2007 年 8 月 17 日  星期五   晴天

 

 

today is the bestest day since june 25th 愉快

  

today was so good cuz i talked to mike on the phone for 40 minutes

he was makign fun of me and he was laughing the same time

so was he making fun of me or he is laughing of his jokes

anyway he makes me laugh even tho he is making fun of me

but it was great to hear his laugh and my laugh combine

cuz i haven't heard that so long and i really miss him

there was a lady with 2 lil kids and i helped them out

and i feels so proud of myself being so nice and care and

i'm sure that's the reason that mike fall for me

cuz i would cares for others more than myself

well everytime i see a mother and with kids

it makes me think of what my mother in law said to me

that i'm preparing to eb a mother well be JJ to be techically

hehe it makes me smile and i'm so glad i tlaked to mike

it makes me smile and i'm so happy to have him in my life

i have this good feelingthat mike will be my groom   

and i will be the beautifulest bride in earth

becuz i have mike and i'll be the happiest lady in the world

can't wait till that day!

I LOVE U MICHAEL THOMAS RAPHAEL JAKALA

 

刊登時間︰2007-08-17 11:59 PM  [ 訪客留言(0) ] [ 編輯日誌 ] [ 分享至FACEBOOK ]


2007 年 8 月 16 日  星期四   雨天

 

 

i'm sucha silly goof 不安

  

i'm sucha silly goof

cuz i got mad at something that doesn't means anything

does that makes sense

oh well if it doesn't makes sense

look who're u tlaking to

ew today is rainy day and i miss mike even more

cuz i want to walk with him in the rain hehe^^

like way before my cuz got caught

but it was nice to hear form him by meg =P

glad i have him

i love u michael forever and ever

刊登時間︰2007-08-16 07:48 PM  [ 訪客留言(0) ] [ 編輯日誌 ] [ 分享至FACEBOOK ]


2007 年 8 月 15 日  星期三   晴天

 

 

B.O.W.L.I.N.G. 愉快

  

today bowling was fun with kenneth, kenny, ryan and phillip

it was amazing and philip is a pro hes so good i'm amazed lolx

he got his sisters's goodness..lolx

i didn't think of u so much today

but i really miss you tho

as i see anyone that gets a strick

i thought of u

i checked ur myspace

it said u were online at tuesday

but i dont' see why can't u sent me something

to notify me where're u going

i just don't get it i'm so confuse

what'm i to you?

i saw my friend broke up the relationship

and it makes my shovery...

cuz i'm scare someday we'll ending up like them

and i don't get how people can let go of a relationship so easy

as they're not taking any challenge

it makes me mad that they believing is so weak

and seems liek nothing can make them stronger

i don't know what to say

but surely my heat says it misses u and

i want to be with you forever

cause for sure i know that you're the one that i want to spent my life with

so i hope we can keep our believes stronge with each other

I LOVE YOU MICHAEL and I REALLY REALLY LOVE U

just mad that u can't notify me of you going away and stuff =(

 

刊登時間︰2007-08-15 06:50 PM  [ 訪客留言(0) ] [ 編輯日誌 ] [ 分享至FACEBOOK ]


2007 年 8 月 14 日  星期二   雨天

 

 

am i not important to u anymore 鬱悶

  

I don't understand this

i always though i meant so much to you

but i guess i was wrong

cause you would always let me know if ur doing something

but this time ur going to catskills and ur not letting me know

i'm not mad i'm just disappointed

that i have to hear from others that ur going away

what am i to you?

just something u don't really need

but when ur depress i be ur clown, ur fool

WHAT AM I?

FOR U I don't knwo who I'm no more..

i tho i was doing a good job but this

just makes me depress more than ever

is bad as ur well as stab me with a knife

use a gun to shot me through my head

put acid throught my body let me melt

I don't know no more..i'm so sad

can anyone rescue me ? Please i need it the most

I REALLY REALLY LOVE U

I REALLY REALLY WANT TO BE WITH YOU

but who's there to protect my feelings?

I REALLY REALLY LOVE U

刊登時間︰2007-08-14 12:25 PM  [ 訪客留言(0) ] [ 編輯日誌 ] [ 分享至FACEBOOK ]


2007 年 8 月 8 日  星期三   晴天

 

 

so weird.... 不安

  

i have this uncanny feelings and i call it weird and idky it just feels weird but for sure is concern abt someone but yes i'm beginning to think what my mom say to me  Gurboish idk.. but maybe i can talk to mike for it and i think it will makes me feels better or at least i hope but idk.. i think sometihing else is bothering me too can't remmeber

刊登時間︰2007-08-08 10:33 PM  [ 訪客留言(0) ] [ 編輯日誌 ] [ 分享至FACEBOOK ]


2007 年 8 月 7 日  星期二   晴天

 

 

the way that mom feels 不安

  

mom feels that i care abt mike more than he cares abt me but i don't feel that way cuz i know mike cares abt me as much as he cares abt himself cuz he would willing to take a risk for me and he is doing something very danger for me that might cuz him so much trouble but he would willing to do it for me cuz he loves me and i feels that love is something u give unconditionally and don't expect to be return, is something that makes u happy and don't needs nothign to be returned and i guess mom just feels that mike don't sent me letters and stuff it just so weird and everything else.. wow mom just feels that guys should cares more? does it really seems like that wya that i cares more than he cares abt me? cuz i really don't think so <sigh> 90 % of my friends say that i cared more than he does.. is that sucha bad thing =( well i ttyl and I LOVE YA michael..love

刊登時間︰2007-08-07 11:48 PM  [ 訪客留言(0) ] [ 編輯日誌 ] [ 分享至FACEBOOK ]


2007 年 7 月 26 日  星期四   晴天

 

 

38th week being stuck with MTRJ 愉快

  

38th week being with michael and it makes me smile and i think is wonderful and he said something to me today but i can't rememberbut i know was something sweet oh yeah i saw this chinese qoute in a book i been reading and i'm translating it back to english

"love can't  be waited. loved, then tell, rather have a broken heart and can't klet heart to be regret because life can't start over again!"

I LOVE U MICHAEL.. hope to speak to u soon lolx =)

刊登時間︰2007-07-26 10:47 PM  [ 訪客留言(0) ] [ 編輯日誌 ] [ 分享至FACEBOOK ]


2007 年 7 月 25 日  星期三   晴天

 

 

i want to be with u but i learned to share 愉快

  

I love u much and i don't mean to agrue with u ONCE again over the friends issues and u meant so much to me that i cares so much and i know now i must learn to share cuz if i don't share u with u and ur friends we'll be ending up hurts cuz u willl bad that ur in between gf or friends so i learn to understand and i will always try to be make some sense out of myself I love ya so much and i didn't mean to make u be HURT and i didn't mean to scream at u or anything to make u feels bad and havign u being in the middle of me and ur friends cuz that would be the last thing i ever would want to do u and i mean if i don't learn to share then i figures that in the future all our agruement is all abt ur friends and not abt some other third person ruining our relationship u know mike.. but i think if we talk more and then things would be getting better and i think we can defeat this and i would try not to care abt u talkign to me every nigth cuz i know u do have a life and friends and so do i!?!? but we just need to talk cuz everytime u hang out with friends and can't talk to me and i get piss off and if eels like i got very old sicne then and it makes me always mad and where's the happy jen chan that just stood there and laugh when she first saw u ??I need to find her shes playing hide and seek and i need to make her come back cuz i don't like this jen chan all bitchy and so controlable and everything and i need to find the loosen up JEN chan ?/ JEN CHAN the psycopath i'm looking for u no matter what I WILL FIND U and hehe I will laugh and carefree..and wouldn't worry abt life so much.. RELAX OMG.. i'm pregant and i'm giving labors breathe in and out lolx well I LOVE U MICHAEL

刊登時間︰2007-07-25 10:49 PM  [ 訪客留言(0) ] [ 編輯日誌 ] [ 分享至FACEBOOK ]


2007 年 7 月 23 日  星期一   晴天

 

 

sweetest dream ever 疑惑

  

    i had the sweetest dream ever last night i saw mike and me and my future children in my dream and it was the wonderfulness dream i ever had in my life and it was so sweet cuzit was a future version of me and mike getting marry and have little kids... I LOVE U MIKE... and u make me smile

刊登時間︰2007-07-23 10:40 PM  [ 訪客留言(0) ] [ 編輯日誌 ] [ 分享至FACEBOOK ]


2007 年 7 月 22 日  星期日   晴天

 

 

FUNNY or SACRATIC? 不安

  

wow work today.. it was frigging hot like zunla..haha ^^ GEEZH walk up and down a lot and then have to life a lot to other customer wow they brought so many cloths today and i have to lift them and then write them down and then folding cloths and then i kept sneezing what the freak?

idk was phillip being funny or sacratic?we had a conversation abt this person that makes me upset !? but phillip was being very queer so i dk was he kidding or he was sacratic? so here's out conversation!?

  • J: i'm upset!
  • P:what're u upset about !?
  • J: .....
  • P: is not like he is cheating on ur back?
  • P: is not like he is liking another girl?
  • P: is not like he is breaking up with u ?
  • P: is not like
  • j: shut up phillip !! (as i was saying that eyes gets watery and i was ready to smack him)

so yeah.. that was our conversation i dk what was phillip thinking and he is crazy !

what was phillip was thinking ? was he trying to cheer me up or he was taking his side when he doens't know what i'm upset about!?Oh My god.. boys what can u say ?

i mean seriously DON'T say YOU LOVE ME IF U DON'T MEAN IT i don't want some frigging BS like sacratic way i don't need it I DON'T i only take true love i don't need some fake frigging love i don't so don't say it to me if ur feeling whatever, that's why everytime i will say i love u either i mean it or i just won't say it at all cuz i know im feeling whatever!

I believe in TRUE LOVE

if ur so piss at me then we won't tlak until whenever u feels like ur not mad at me anymore then we'll talk again.. or when u realize that i'm somehat important are in ur life ok..!?

I LOVE YOU and I MEAN it not like how u said it to me as a whatever shits!

O great i love this sumemr NOT..it sucks and bet my birthday will sucks even more

刊登時間︰2007-07-22 10:23 PM  [ 訪客留言(0) ] [ 編輯日誌 ] [ 分享至FACEBOOK ]


2007 年 7 月 2 日  星期一   陰天

 

 

8th months with mike 鬱悶

  

8th months being with mike yay!! i suppose is a good thing!!

muhmm.. here we goes again the friends issues against the girlfriends issues!! PK why is god making challenge like this for me !! this is sucha annoying issues..!! <sigh> 

i know i dont' have much to say to you about what you should do or not that's because i'm not in frigging NY!

stupid bitch is all ur frigging fault nO is ur frigging daughter's fault and u don't knwo how to control her and that's why you suck at life I hate takign ur shit   

I wish i can be 18 sooner or later !! get away from everything and everyone and BLAH SHIT !!Ok

LIFE SUCKS but gladly have u MTRJ even we have different issues!! <sigh> i believe we be able to compriazse

 

刊登時間︰2007-07-02 10:46 AM  [ 訪客留言(0) ] [ 編輯日誌 ] [ 分享至FACEBOOK ]


2007 年 6 月 26 日  星期二   晴天

 

 

being with mike for 15 minutes 感動

  

today was a hard day!! MIKE i'm so proud of u !! and everything else thank you for coming to my house even is only for 15 minutes!! i'm glad we had each other to be in each other's arms and i'm glad i can be there for u when ur downa dn i can somehow manage to bring u up high !! WELL u took my job  <sigh> michael how dare u ?? it was suppose to be me and then u ending up taking the pain for me !! OMG.. i don't know what am i gonna do without u!?!? i mean seriously.. ur just be there and took all my pain away thank you for promising that u will always be there for me no matter what even in the future! THANKS !! ur the second guy that did such a thing for me..first was my daddy and now ur second so that's not bad second man in my life Ur one specail person to me and i would never want to lose u and thansk for taking my pain away and u SHOCKED me well i mean u shocked me all the time when ur looking at me haha ^^ but yeah.. thanks for everythign and i'm glad i was there for u as well THANKS SO MUCH !!!

 THANKING LIST!!!

  1. everything that you done for me!
  2. trying your hardness to let me know ur in love with me
  3. asking me to be ur GF!
  4. being ur true genuine self
  5. sneaking into my house
  6. turned when i kissed ur cheek (1st kiss appear)
  7. reading my minds as well as urs
  8. for being such a wonderful BF...
  9. for being so lovely
  10. for being so handsome and cute
  11. for being such a happy person and always makes me laugh
  12. would rather have pain hit u than me
  13. letting me having secure feelings..
  14. interlocked our fingers
  15. always be there for me

 

OMG michael I love u so much and i will defnitly miss u the most while i'm not in NY 


刊登時間︰2007-06-26 11:28 AM  [ 訪客留言(0) ] [ 編輯日誌 ] [ 分享至FACEBOOK ]


2007 年 6 月 24 日  星期日   晴天

 

 

OMG 疑惑

  

wow today worked out so perfect well i mean every moment that i spent with u is always perfect! wow i sneak u in my house and it works i'm so happy like u have no idea and i'm hoping i can see u tomorrow!! i love kissing u and being in ur arm and i love how u tickleish me and i can't get away but is  oNLY today haha ^^ it just i dont' want to hurt ur feeling and get away and hen u will feel really WEAK haha ^^ but seriously ur punch was hard and it got me sore in one hit usually when john the seventh grader punch me it takes at least 4 punches and u juts take one punch and then my whole arm is sore HOLY SHIT and then u locked me in ur arms and won't let me get away from you what am i now to u ?? A servant or a maid..?? GEEZH MICHAEL but good thing the kisses made up for everything!! i love laying with u and laying in ur arms and everything else i love how u treat me as a treasure and i feel so special to have that privelage !! i love ur family complaintment wink wink is so obvious that is u giving it to me so i feel bad GEE! but thanks you're such a nice boyfriend and i love u so much u know that i don't know how lose i will be if i ever loss u and that's y i keep talking to u about the summer thing and since ur so assured with it!! it actually maks me a bit chilllax well thanks for everything and thank you for spenting your days with me i love being with u trust me !! i love everything about u even i don't like ur hair cut too much  but yes i love u to death and i would love to spent my rest of my life being with u and i mean it like no lie because ur wonderful and u treat me the respect that i suppose to have and when i'm in ur arms i feel secure and no worry and when our lips touch i feels the time stop OMG.. now u know my biggest secret is to be mrs.jakala before we even start datig OMG.. what the hell did u do to me ?? haha ^^ making me falling so hard for u and thank godness ur there to catch me !! well michael i love u adn i ttyl hope to see u tomorrow

 

 MIKE AND ME and i look retard with hairs in my face <sigh>

刊登時間︰2007-06-25 11:56 AM  [ 訪客留言(0) ] [ 編輯日誌 ] [ 分享至FACEBOOK ]


2007 年 6 月 23 日  星期六   晴天

 

 

MIKE's GRADUATION 愉快

  

june 23rd- a day that i will never forget!

i met mike's family most of his family! i wasn't so nervous as i tho i would be

i met mike's dad, mr. jakala! i tho i would never be able to meet him until our wedding

but this is a good start! i can tell mike is very happy today

just beacuse the two person that he wants to be at the graduation are there

one is me and the other one is mr.jakala!

today went out so perfect i just wished i can be with mike longer

mike would rather spent times with me to get the upsetness off me than spenting time with mr.jakala

and he doesn't see him so often

i felt so selffish

but i really need to talk to mike about the relationship thing

after what he said to me

i felt so loved and special and i know he would say this to me

even i didn't ask

but i know

mike is one of those guys that girls would willing to dead for 

but ther's only one girl that he would willing to dead for

and i know for sure that girl is me

i feel so special to have that special privilages and no lie

being his gf was the proudest thing i ever done in life

god please help us throught this summer and especially tomorrow

i don't want to have any troubles of our realtionship 

and please guide us like u always did

thank you so much

mike do u know that i miss u

every second every minutes every hour and every day?

OMG.. MICHAEL I LOVE U SO MUCH forever and ever

and i mean it and it ain't no lie

 

刊登時間︰2007-06-24 10:35 AM  [ 訪客留言(0) ] [ 編輯日誌 ] [ 分享至FACEBOOK ]


2007 年 6 月 20 日  星期三   晴天

 

 

i broke into my house yesterday 愉快

  

i broke into my house yesterday and i broke a window  OOPS !!! =O please dont' tell anyone or else i'm f**ked 

for sure i know i did bad at my chem..not too well.. spencer walked with me to CVS and it was so hard looking at him and not starting to cry beacuse i don't want to lost my friend but yeah he gave me a hug and then i started to cry  !! i can't help it  and i can't even imagine when i see mike at saturday !! or sunday just hope i don't cry too much <sigh> i got spencer to like Dove chocolate haha ^^ yay well later

can't wait till saturday and sunday to see my lover yay last time before summer

and i believe our relationship are very strong!! and we'll be able to defeat anything in our way

刊登時間︰2007-06-21 10:58 AM  [ 訪客留言(0) ] [ 編輯日誌 ] [ 分享至FACEBOOK ]


2007 年 6 月 18 日  星期一   晴天

 

 

mom say that .... 不安

  

mom say that if a guy love u, he would  :

  • find me no matter where i'm!?!
  • get along with my family
  • not be the reason that my family and i are agrue over of
  • ask you to be his love one
  • knee on one knee and ask me to marry him
  • give me 99 roses for special occasion
  • get me a box of choclate to get me fat
  • say i'm beautiful no matter what even when i just get out of bed
  • dance with me in the rain
  • kiss me in the rain
  • catch me if i fall backward
  • kiss my boo-boo when i'm hurt
  • follow me around when he knows i'm upset
  • listen to me screaming at him even is my fault
  • ditch his friends for me
  • let me be a millionarie and spenting all his money and use it for shopping
  • call me when he miss me
  • do stuff as i tell him so
  • treasure me as a jewel
  • do anything to suprise me
  • always tells me he loves me and i'm the only one he loves
  • kiss me so sudden and take my heartbeat away
  • mentally support as well as physicals..
that's all i can remmeber what my mom said to me !! so if u can achieve all of it then i'm marrying u for sure
 
well the bold ONES are the one that MTRJ can't go it yet!! but he will someday!! hehe
刊登時間︰2007-06-19 10:32 AM  [ 訪客留言(0) ] [ 編輯日誌 ] [ 分享至FACEBOOK ]


2007 年 6 月 17 日  星期日   晴天

 

 

miss u mike 愉快

  

mike i miss u a lot 

u know that!?!?

i foudn out how much i meant to u

it makes me feels i'm floating on the cloud

so light that i can almost touches god

wow sry to all my friends

thanks for letting me know how much i meant toward u all

heart melting and i don't like u

kenneth

i don't get why you have to be an asshole 

i tho u were my friend

and it makes me so disappoint that u won't accept mike and me  

summer 07 i hate u

lucky i have mike

and me and u are insepareable

cause we're meant to be

u have my heart

刊登時間︰2007-06-18 11:19 AM  [ 訪客留言(0) ] [ 編輯日誌 ] [ 分享至FACEBOOK ]


2007 年 6 月 16 日  星期六   晴天

 

 

things are settling 滿足

  

today things weren't as bad as yesterday

at least i didn't cry today at all i'm very proud of myself

i'm actually having enough courage to tell my friends what happened yesterday  

things are going well and i have faith in mike and me

everyone around us have faith in us and we're not losing this war 

刊登時間︰2007-06-17 11:09 AM  [ 訪客留言(0) ] [ 編輯日誌 ] [ 分享至FACEBOOK ]


2007 年 6 月 15 日  星期五   晴天

 

 

2 exams is done 不安

  

2 exams is done yay !! i'm so excited and is weekend anyone wants to do anything?? it would be cool!!

my aunt is being a bitch and my bf is being a weirdo and it just driving me coo coo and i'm just hoping the one last thing won't push me over the edge and that is losing u mike...!!  fucking bitch fuck this world fuck everything else so i'm ready to walk and finding myself a new life and if anyone of u need me which i doubt u will find me !! i NEED TO RUN AWAY I'm standing up for u  mike..and now all i get back from the bitch is nothing!! i tried i really tried!!i hate life and i hate shits!! I NEED SOMEONE TO BE THERE FOR ME i'm ready to fall over!!

 

刊登時間︰2007-06-16 12:26 AM  [ 訪客留言(0) ] [ 編輯日誌 ] [ 分享至FACEBOOK ]


2007 年 6 月 14 日  星期四   晴天

 

 

32nd week 不安

  

 math was alrite but english was easy at least i though so !! it was really weird because i couldn't concentrate at all!! and it sucked!! wow i just need to concentrate better i guess but who really knows!!

32 week!! no one rememeber except for me

 

i feel like a phony

a person that is not me

i'm out to wander

to looks for my answer

but i'm really not 

JENNIFER CHAN

i pretend to be happy

when i really not

i pretend to smile

when i want to cry

i pretend to be hyper

when i'm so sick of life

i pretend someone i'm not

someone that is not real

i feel shame

cuz all my friends said that

i'm a genuine

now i had just became a liar

i'm hiding my feelings from friends

that cares about me

the only one i want to open up with is u

but i won't

because u don't know how much u hurted me

and how much i miss u

i'm starting not to care anything around me

 and that's the job of a fool

caring is gone

and now all left with me is a cold heart evil b*tch

seriously what the f*ck is wrong with me

i became a phony

when i wants to keep all my feelings with myself

i don't want to share

i don't want to talk

especially to you

i'm afraid i'm always in ur way

and you never tell me that i'm

life is challenge!!

i learned more as i get through it each day!

 

Friendly's was definitly fun but i can't even get u off my mind!! i can't concentrate at anything i acted like i'm happy but i'm really not and who is out there to care!!

I can't hate you anymore~Nick Lachey 

An empty room can be so deafening
The silence makes you wanna scream
it's drives you crazy
I chased away the shadows of your name
And burned the picture in the frame
but it couldn't save me
And how could we quit something we never even tried
Well you still can't tell me why

Chorus
We built it up to watch it fall
Like we meant nothing at all
I gave and gave the best of me
But couldn't give you what you need
You walked away; you stole my life
Just to find what you are looking for
No matter how I try
I can't hate you anymore

Bridge
Sometimes you hold so tight
it slips right through your hands
Will I ever understand

Chorus
We built it up to watch it fall
Like we meant nothing at all
I gave and gave the best of me
But couldn't give you what you need
You walked away; you stole my life
Just to find what you are looking for
But no matter how I try
I can't hate you anymore
 

Chasing Cars -Snow Patrol

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Have said too much
But not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

sometimes i just wished that u can forget everything about the world and just spent your time with me but i know that won't even happened because is impossible!! so i guess i will just have to spent my time with myself!! and friends of course!!

刊登時間︰2007-06-15 05:34 AM  [ 訪客留言(0) ] [ 編輯日誌 ] [ 分享至FACEBOOK ]


2007 年 6 月 13 日  星期三   晴天

 

 

can't think striaght 不安

  

can't frigging think straight!!! THIS SUCKS !! stupid crap and GURR stupid regents!! stupid biotch stupid video games stupid everything else!! GURRR!!! me need to go to sleep now and ignore everyone in the morning !! concentrate i need a hypotonise to make me fall asleep hope i ahve a good dream by myself in it i dont' wnat any one to be in there with me!! please just leave me alone!! ='( i dont' wnat to think now more... i hate this and that i'm sucha  loser and a complanier <sigh> what can u say !! Oh WELL... me ttyl.. perhaps taro is right <sigh> =.=" O shes a cutie and shes the one that makes me laugh i hope i can see her soon!!

the mod i'm in now haha help!?!?

刊登時間︰2007-06-14 07:12 AM  [ 訪客留言(0) ] [ 編輯日誌 ] [ 分享至FACEBOOK ]


2007 年 6 月 13 日  星期三   陰天

 

 

I freaking hate guys 不安

  

I freaking hate guys and don't ask why ??

i just do and u can call me a little kid for not acting my age

but i don't give a shit no more

i'm not freaking calling u anymore

so if u want to talk to me then u call me

i'm sick of always being in the way when ur playing ur stupid game

i hate it and u know i'm just gonna give up even trying

because there's no use to change you

so freaked this and freaked that !?!? 

i hate this and i don't want to talk to you unless you're not busy

so if u want to talk then u will call

but if u don't that just means ur busy and u don't even have me in ur mind

*punching the wall* 

 

Let the rain fall on me and overflood me

let me sink to the bottom and let me drown

who is going to be there to save me ??

most likely no one but myself

 

i had never felt that way before until ur being a ASSHOLE!!!

freaking hate life !!

thank god not coming home till 530 tomorrow

so i don't have to think about you at all..

so i decide i will kick you out of my minds tomorrow!

hate waiting for u to have TIME to talk to me

 this shit is CRAP!!

 

hanging out!! who freaking knows if we'll hangout anymore i guess we'll whenever ur not busy

<sigh> guys sucks !!!

sometimes i dont' even understand why they need a gf for when they have their video games

can't the video game be their lover so what's the use of the girl being around

just to feel bad and cry a river until their eyes pop out!!

*weeping* and i'm not faking it no more

i just need to cry and let all the pain out

 

 

 

 



 

 

刊登時間︰2007-06-14 05:49 AM  [ 訪客留言(0) ] [ 編輯日誌 ] [ 分享至FACEBOOK ]


2007 年 6 月 6 日  星期三   晴天

 

 

can't wai till ahng out with mike 愉快

  

MIKE... having u in my life is wonderful and i would love to be with u forever and hope t goes to the same for u that u wold want to be with me forever too and i will always alove u and do as i promise u and i just can't wait tuill see u at ur graduation and watching u becoming a collegeeee lolx well love  so much and juyst want to be with u forevr

刊登時間︰2007-06-06 11:13 PM  [ 訪客留言(0) ] [ 編輯日誌 ] [ 分享至FACEBOOK ]


2007 年 4 月 26 日  星期四   陰天

 

 

25th week 疑惑

  

25th week with this guy named MIKE haha AMAZING let me tell u and everything!!!!

BE JEALOUS BECUZ I HAVE HIM ADN U DON"T 

love spenting times with him

thinking about him when he is around of not

can't kick him outta my mind

dream of him before i met him

care so much that i can read his mind as well as mine

nothing can make me love him less

except him being chris and john's stripper and NOT MINE

communication is not imporatnt because we can read each others heart

life is so wonderful and what more do i need??

to be honest pretty much nothing

but to wait

for my name to be jennifer jakala

till the days i be his bride

life would be like fairytale

 

I LOVE U MICHAEL

刊登時間︰2007-04-27 08:53 PM  [ 訪客留言(0) ] [ 編輯日誌 ] [ 分享至FACEBOOK ]


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