no school today and hate being home becuz is so boring i would rather be in school or not i wish i can be with u eternity haha i'm so queer...well if tomorrow was my last day i 'll spent it with u eternity <--muhmm.. sounds familar only u knows... becuz ur the one that wrote to me !! @_@ i'll be with u always in my heart no matter how dar apart we're nothing can separate us becuz true love is undying

OMG.. i dont' have to break apart with mike THANK YOU GOD FOR IT..!! becuz he make mike and i met and he can't just take each of us to be away from each other.. GOD i'm thankful u letting me meet this perfect guy name mike and i just wish u never will take away each other from us!! i know it was a way to test my tolerant..to see how much i can take my eyes really hurt becuz i know i cry a lot and i didn't even cry for a39a becuz she ain't worth it but all my tears are to mike becuz i don't want to loses him becuz i just can't lose him a39a always say she dont' wantme to get hurt form other ppl but shes the one that is hurting me i don't get it !! O.o what is wrong with this society a39a is actually pretty laid back for mike and me to be having a relationship...don't get y perhaps she has fallen in love with him for like meeting him two times. and she said hes a good kid not those wild kids and she likes him !! weird.. so she doesn't care much as much as me adn nic...perhaps is better i'm getting older and i know what am i doing and whom am i hanging out with more... mum.. this battle is not over until shes fully accepting mike and all...well love ya all have a good weekend with those that u love..

Spencer's sweet sixteen finally arrive and it was a lot of fun becuz we a group of crazy ppl do crazy things i got 16 gliter ball ina  row yeah !! shut up mike.. i know u just want to laugh but too bad if u laugh at me i will just laugh at u back at ur face well BOWLING WAS AWESOME.... and i love it we should do this more often AWESOME.. sweeetness...well ttyl don't feel like typing so need anything just e-mail me soo lazy..

rain rain rain 

let it all pour on me

pour on my friends and me

so cold so cold

feels like Alazka

i want to my eskimo's cloths

i'm freezing cold

i just wish the sun can come out soon

don't know how much longer i can stand this frigging weather

but hey i have mike's hug and you don't so be jealous

i been cold and feels like bury in ice for adace

please give me strneth to break through this

i need help and i know i'll fight

i'm going to school no matter how sick i'm

no one can crush me and

i ain't getting absent.. 

so sickness u can kiss my ass... 

To

Michael Thomas Raphael Jakala , 

silent breaths

the phone is not ringing

hoping will get the connection back soon

i miss the sounds of the phone ringing

especially hoping i can hear your voice...

actually i don't really mis sthe phone ringing

i'm just missing ur voice

but do u miss mine??

especially is horribly loud

sorry waking you up form ur sweet dreams

because of me calling you

i miss the time we laugh crazily about nothing

the time that i fall out of my chair

the jokes that is between us..

i miss all this great time

so please give me my phone back

i don't know if i can survive another day without the phone

becuz it feels like i can't survive

especially without you

sorry i'm keep repeating

but it just proves how much i love you

i have to keep remaining you that i love u

becuz i'm a recording machine

so if you give me a call i should get your message and

have them return before is too late

all i want to say is

i love you!!

and you're everything that i'll ever need!

~Jennifer

I just wanna cry !!  

Hearing the news of losing someone soon!!

Someone that means a lot to me

Someone that gave birth to my dad and 

so that's why i exist!!

and she's my grandma..

a cool grandma that i can release any secret to

someone that needs love and family support 

so if u care about me

then you should care about her, too!!

because right now she really need  

someone to get her back and always be there for her

and i know i'll be the one

becuz i'm her favorite grandchild 

grandma no worry..u'll be fine 

i'll always be there with u

at least u have to stay alive 

for the happiness celebration

when i'm marrying mike

whom is your grandchild-in-law

and you'll be teh first one to meet him

if you don't like him then

i guess i won't marry him

becuz i will make sure i find a guy

that you like

there's three word i always wanted to tell u

IS

I love you!! 

~jennifer 

idk what is wrong with me ?/ i'm really tired i'm trying to stay up waiting for my favorite perosn to get online but it seems like not working becuz i'm really tired and hes at john's and that makes me kinda sad :( not really i'm just scare that all of a sudden he turn bi on me and then later on is turning gay... or maybe hes trying to avoid me becuz i asked him the question abt if i dead.. i hope mike is not avoiding me for that question becuz i'll be pretty sad more like heart broken.. i didn't mean to i was just curious just in case if anythign happens..that's all!! no one knows what will happen next?? becuz we can't really predict the future...sry i make u had a watery eyes..I soooo didn't mean to that !!

Kenneth i'm just glad we can treat each other as brother and sisters and that's what we're all year long since the time we're born till now...!! FRIENDS FOR EVER!!!

Wing i wrote ur letter today but i have to print out teh picture of mike and me and i'll sent it out soon i hope.. hehe u know i'm really lazy

mike ur amazingly amazing...(does that make sense??) well ur so perfect but i guess it felt liek forever since i saw u mondya and it felt like months ago..OMG...i wish u live close to me more.. and i know i saw u in my dream last night it was pretty sweet

i got soda at my skirt and ppl makes fun of me like i peed my pants ARGH!! not kewl i'm so happy for u kenneth that u have a gf !! wish u two together and forever..have a happy life like a fairytale MTRJ u have no idea how amazing ur toward me...i mean physically and mentally..wow yes i just want to give u a complienment becuz ur AWESOME..i know there's more words to describe u but there's not enough to describe u when ur this special like a angel..ur everything <3 <3 ur sweeter than a dove chocolate 

is sex really that important?? is sex something that makes ppl loses control ? y is sex so harmful y can't ppl wait till they get marry but instead just getting themselves in trouble and getting themselves in pregenant when they're still in schools!! i just don't get it why is ppl so stupid luckily  i knew this was gonna happen between her and him.. i warned her and if anything happen i'll still be here!! I think i just need someone to tlak to i didn't tell anyone abt them adn if u really care maybe u will give me a call!! i can't say anything to anyone at school or else that's how rumors start it !1 please help me out.. please drag me outta dark and give me some light..i'm just glad i found u becuz u we ain't needing sex to maintain our relationship and a true genuine relationship are when u love one and other not having each other as benefits...thank god my other friend is not pregnant and now she and that jerk ar ebeing friends again.. does guys always use girls as a toy but at least i know MIKE is not like that and i'm proud i found someone like that it just amaze me how great of a guy he truely is THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING AND i just want to let u all know cherish what u have now becuz when the days comes that ur losing those that u love u will regret so now i just want to sent all my love to those that i care much and klove much.. SUCh AS: Mom, dad, phillip, mike, pig bel gor, kenneth, spencer, kathy, katie, beth, irene, gina, summer, sarah, jess, dave, elisa, j.r., maddie, john A, Jenny, and who ever that is my good friends... thanks to u and all i want to say is that i love u all just in case something happen to me and i will miss my chance saying it...do it instead of missing the chances or else will be regret.. trust me..

Mike and I been together for 2 months Congruts and i'm expecting a phone call!! just give me a short msg like congrution like u any kind of random shits... yaya !! new year = new hopes... well!!! IDK a relationship seems like longer than it is...well it seems likeforever since we were born... i thought i didn't mean to be in anyone's life but i actually meant something in mike's life and i meant more to him than i tho!! a39a asked me what's the realationship with mike.. i said only best friend and in my heart i started laughing not out loud but in my heart becuz i have this goofy feelings abt it haha ^_^ a39a also say how i should be a saver instead of a spenter but i'm saying i'm prolly saying it up for prom a39a and mom  been asking mike lately what've they been up to?? Gee i really have no idea i almost want to asked a39a what she thinks abt mike abt she brought him up how i called him a lot and i shouldn't be perhaps is his job but i gave her a answer of " mike would call me every sinle day but he just don't know what's the time and so i will called him instead of him calling me!!" i was gonna ask farther but i didn't becuz i kept my secret toward myself and yet...is always great to ahve a chat abt him.. i wonder if wishes will come true that we ending up going to each other's proms.. lolx hope is not the same day as mine or as the boscus proms.. lolx haha ^_^ hope and only hope..well thank you god for everything i' really appreciate i don't want anyone not to be unhappy when i'm around especially Kenneth becuz ur like ah gor toward me and i know i make mistakes over the summer but i really didn't mean to hurt u it just didn't have the feeling with u as gf and bf I'm relaly sry but friends forever!!becuz i know i was gonna kiss ray on teh cheek at june i had a idea of doing that but then something stop me so i didn't and so the first one goes to MTRJ!! i guess god had it all planned out for my life so thankful for every angel to be in my life becuz without them i prolly be still in the cold..thanks you MTRJ my favorite K_SS was at the photo machine.. suprise and sweet not long but it felt great.. haha^_^ WAN6EVR mo han lear ga yut

"when u think u don't meant anything toward anyone, but eventually u actually meant something to someone.someone that meant 4 u" 

 "love is to share"

"what else do u need when u find the true prince of your life and all u can do is just cherish it..instead of losing it!1 becuz is not always lucky to find teh second prince always go with the first choices unleast hes a jerk then dump him but if not and if ur the one that being a bitch O My then u will never have a perfect man." <-- don't know if it makes sense but it makes sense to me

this year went by pretty fast!! this year i been throught heartbroken, hurt, left in the cold, being heal up, putting my heart back together, having a person to share christmas with me, great summer, friendship are being ruined for jealousy and friends ship are being build with new ppl..

january: didn't have a midterms

feburary: getting to know ray's much better and getting so close toward him tho i will be ending up with a drug kid but i didn't becuz i guess ray didn't want to harm me, celebrate his birthday with him... (not really)

march: felt like a piece of shits...becuz my friend anthony G would rather goes with Jenna to semi rather than me WTF?? but luckily anthony D will go with me..Ray asked me to semi after Anthony D and I paid for teh money :( should've asked earlier

april: fall for this guy named Dave and he broke my heart totally after becuz he lied toward me and just sent me toward hell.. didn't hurt that much becuz ray gave me a rose form teh play of beauty and teh beast

may: meeting this guy name Mike Jakala.. becuz he and my cuz Jen were having a fight and so i decided to butt in since i care abt my cuz and i want to know what is the problems.. u can called me nosy but i care.. by the way that jen told me abt him i want to meet him even more becuz for all teh sweet thing he have done for her and i was gonna pretend i was a guy and hit on him but then i didn't becuz he was wicked smart and realize i was a girl

 june: finals and back to h.k....getting to know mike much better becuz we used msna dn e-mails to communicate....

july: kenneth told me he liked me again and is my sweet 16th birthday...getting to know mike better and tho it was a joke when he told me he liked me how funny is that ?? ^_^ mike and i became extremely best buddy and telling everything toward each other he is alwasy there when i needed the help and he remember my birthday and he would even stay up till 3 in teh morning just to chat with me.. he always solve my problem and help me to egt out of it

 august: kenneth are trying to asked me out  but i turned him down horribly and yet i only liked him as a best friend hope he will understand...mike is always there when i needed the help and we got much more serious becuz when ever he told me he liked me i actually think abt if he really meant it or is a joke...and over at august i will try to go online as the samae tiem as he get on so i can talk to him but he never knows this becuz i never told him and yet !! he been on my mind when i'm online and i just want to be talking to u!! back in NY the first person talking onlien was Mike and we stayed up till like 2

september: school starts and being a junior is kinda harsh.. having all the 6 and 7th grader are taller than me and then i went to mechaniville homcoming with jen adn anne hoping to see mike there but the person that i saw was the person that broke my heart at april and i just be brave and let it get over me and say hi...during at the game jen and anne ahve feelings he was hitting on me ONCE AGAIN!! i said O no he prolly only wants to be friends...jen and anne are good at telling whever likes me or not!! becuz both of them knoew mike and dave liked me...when i got home i sented mike a e-mail just to tell him like i'm not being a slore hitting on other guy behind his back (perhaps i hadteh feelings for him but i just never say) we alwasy have fights abt if i liked him or not!! CRAZY GUYS

october: FINALLY  sees mike!! is quite embaressing teh first time seeing him at price chopper, i just stood there and laughing and he just stand there and being a nice gents smiled back at me and we went to trick or treat togethe ri had to admit he was teh cutest zombie i've ever seen in my life.. it was fun...he always hit his head on the roof becuz too busy talking to me, he thought a basketball was a pumkin we holded hand when we went down hill and i was his nurse when he had a brain freeze and i gave him a hald way hug becuz we were in the car...and right b4 he got out..he asked me this really cute sweet adoreable question but the asnwer i gave him was i have to think abt it !!

November: i'm not single becuz on teh 2nd of november at 830 i finally have a genuine bf...and the person is mike..he said he won't care if ppl don't know, if my aunt doesn't know, if we break up we'll still be best friend forever so what else do i need when i ahd such a perfect guy that can deal with my family problem...we played football at jen's house i met chris and it suprise me and he jumped on me becuz he was trying to get the football mike was like o shit no he didn't just jumped on her.. he was quite worry and then...i kept chucking football at him when he wasn't paying attention...he slipped into mudsO i felt bad but at the end of the day he asked me to gave him a hug becuz i didn't realize Oops SRY@_@ then we met ecah other at the basketball tournament...he did had plan putting his arms around me but he didn't becuz he said I was worry u ain't ready for it..and so i know for sure hes a true gents.. lolx!! welll took a lot of pictures together and i was laying on him... haha^_^ such a drovis!! a39a saw it and start yelling me as a slore but whatever becuz she will never knows the secret of mike and me

 December: my best friend Sum and my bf mike met each other...and we went watch happy feet..we holded hand which was really a good deal... we didn't hold hand in public becuz we were both really shy..then i saw him at price chopper the lady behind his cashier was givng me dirty looks ARGH!! then we went to watch eragon and chris was there too.. i had to admit hes really tall and he put my irish ring on me and then we watched eragon.. it was so much fun with him he hugged me from behind when i was watching anne playing video games..we went to stores and one of teh furniture store.. i tried to pull him up but he pulled me toward him what the heck?? then we went to teh photo machine and on teh third shot: i kissed him on the cheek and he turned his face so it ending up he kissed my lips e_e Oh Oooo!!! he suprised me so bad.. didn't realize he will do that but i guess that's a start and then b4 i go i gave him and he return one back.. it was fun on marry-go-around and getting so dizzy..then at jen's house was fun too especially when he paid for his lunch i really didn't expected her to do that!!! thanks jn i owe u one big one!!! it was fun walking downtown with him and he compare me with a short tree that i'm taller than him.. argh!! then i taugh him chinese numbers and he learned so fast that is amazing... and yet we had some chinese game and especially ho gai pong gai everytime when i'm near him i give him hugs and then one time when i was in front of him... he hugged me from behidn so i can't move..ALSO he picked me up horizantally !!then we took a walk and then...we sat on the river bend...he tried to pull me off toward him.. haha :P lucky we both didn't fall on the rivers and we like kissed lok times and the last one was great..then he eventually get to come over my house and i laid on him and he was my pillow it was so much fun and we watched john tucker must die... O my i've been whipped...hah is funny!!!! ^_^ i laid down on him, make him hot chocolate,sharing hot chocolate, cooking food and sharing food and i'm glad we share drinks becuz mike said he only share it with special ppl and i'm the only one hehe ^_6 and then, we stood out teh cold and we laid down on the ground looking at the sky!! my hand in his giant huge humonguse jacket since it fits our ahnd but it won't fit his hand in it...it was really warm when he was hugging me so tight when i was freezing cold and i couldn't breathe thanks for being my heater.. i mean hes everything and what else do i ever need?? hes so wonderful...and he is all i need... this christmas are the best becuz i have u to be around...and really that's all i need!! i lost my best friend kenneth for jealousy and he betrayed me and i felt hurt but hey that's life

 life is life is the attitude we look at it !!!

i know i know i saw u yesterday but why does this seems like forever ARGH screaming and screaming...i really missed u a lot since then..i just hope my family can get use to the dating relationship much more reflexible and so yet...i don't even know anymore...well just hope we can see soon and if not i guess i'll have to suffer... gur bo gur bo.. ARGH!! can't wait till me turning 18!! -sigh- life is so hard but luckily i got u by myside and i gues sthat's all i will ever need anyway well me tired so ttyl

Today was so sweet.. i wish that it will never end becuz whenever i'm with u is always perfect and i pretended to be ur wife today and  it was fun.. i love how we so chill for everything except for teh beginning of the part i was a little panic alright not a little but yes luckily u and anne were there to chill me out thank you so much.. wow today was so awesome!!!pretending to be ur wife was the greastest thing ever even tho i didn't have my wedding rings yet muhmm.. BUT i know i'm getting soon  Gee be aware of that! and i want it !!<3 u hear me so u better do the job!!...Cooking for u, watching movies with u, laying on u, cleaning up for u,sharing hot chocolate with u, sharing foods(creamy), sharing lemon tea,waiting in teh cold with u, laying down on ur arm staring at the sky, hugging me when i was like freezing cold, u kept my lip warm instead of being freezing and yet.., ur hugs makes me so warm and i have ur hand in ur big giant humonguese jacket.. it was so warm  haha nice try on my jacket but too bad it was too small and is perfect becuz the girls suppose be in the guys coat and hands.. since the guy suppose protect teh girl.. thanks for giving me a hand when i cross the muddy stream.. haha ^_^ but i had to admit we had so much fun today when we were watching JOHN Tucker Must Die.. it was so funny.. i was laying on u as a my pillow if only we can hang out this much everyday.. but hey i guess we just have to wait!!...HOLY shit sup kisses on yut month..OMG!! O My Dear Lord...-sigh- but for sure it definitly felt so good after the kisses it definitly makes me feels much more closer and i definitly likes it a lot and yet...i hope u feels the same for me and i like to lay on u becuz ur pretty comfy i have to admit... haha ^_^ and u read one of my day in my life...muhmm... u were so suprise when u saw how much diary i wrote for teh past two year and yet is always great....becuz ur in it!! haha i think we're getting really close toward each other and yet we're knowing much better and doing it much easier with each other and we just so use to it and is like we known each other like forever...!!!!

OMG today was so awesome that i wish today never go away!! it was a little chilly i still can deal with it just becuz i have u to be with me and have my hands in ur pocket.. thanks that kept me so warm that i wish it can be with u forevr and ever AMEN!! wow today was awesome..especally when u picked me up with *e* arms really sweet and i really like it infinity and beyond plus yut haha beat u to it.. beat u to the limit..well i'm suprise we did like 7 times today.. we just do it whenever we feels  like to.. that was pretty funny..we're pretty good and i think we're getting much more use to each other than the first time we saw each other  *memory flash back* O My Lord that is just scary... oh well.. i'm proud of mys4elf doing that today and so...um.. is really good.. sry u have to bent ur neck down for me....but hey i have to stractch my neck upward so i guess is a tie... lolx well no matter what today is the best

WTF is wrong with me?? no one knows except for myself but for sure i know there's something wrong with me but what is it?? can't really figure it out so i'm just gonna give up..since if i think mroe the more headache i get.. which is not so good...i don't like headaches is confusing...-sigh- GUYS ARE THE MOST CONFUSING THING IN EARTH...-sigh- i don't even know..who cares and if u really do care i should be getting a phone call from you soon and i'll definitly feeling better if i have friends around just to tell me what a stupid person i'm and i'll be cheer up thanks ... thanks to all teh friends.... Summer, Katie, J.R., Spencer, Kathy, Dave D, Kenneth ( thanks for leaving me at the cold... great i felt betray), WING and Mike thanks for all being there for me... friends last forever life is only real if u make it real..-sigh- i don't get what guys have in their mind and i don't know what are they thinking i just don't get it...maybe someday i can read mind but they can't read mind.. and so i can be a psycopath that always run into the mall and like hit the wall.. lolx-sigh- life life life...

"life can be bitter and life can be sweet, is teh attitude we look at it."

wow !! i just have to say today was awesome even tho it was rainning i won't go in details but yes this is awesome...-sigh- well if u really care u can ask  me and it makes me feels sweet

it's finally Christmas !! this year felt so different!! prolly becuz my aunt and uncle aren't with me and i got much more mature.. but the most important reason was i got u.. MTRJi got a really cute bracelt from jen and is adoreable and i love it i was hoping i can have something to open from mike but hey i got the charm i should've wrap it up instead of wearing it from december 17th.. but oh well.. life is actually will get better and yesh me seeing him tomorrow so who cares?? becuz is long as i'm with him that's all i need buti wonder if he knows how to put he irish ring on me.. since he is like 20% of irish...who really knows!! i really want him to put it the right way and yet...i don't know how shits will work out when is our 1st try but yet if we're not ready then i guess we won't do much but seriously who knows?? the only person that knows is god becuz he had set up teh path for us to walk on it and is our decision to rather do it or not...it was a weird way for us to meet but now we have to work on our own to figure things out...and yes christmas so be happy i will write more later when i come back form teh christmas party......can't wait till to be with u forever.. and u know who u are??

life is differcult but what can u say becuz that's the way that god created us...giving us tests instead of like giving us a easy life but for sure i'm sure he wants us to go throught all this differcult that we have with our family and friends... that's why we have each other by the side just to vandicate one and other

i had this crazy dream about mike and me last night no we were not having sexual physical contact... but it was abt school olypics becuz our school was against each other to see which schol is better i was sitting down with jen and then john, mike and meg showed up.. miek spied jen so he came over toward us and so i was really weird.. becuz our school beat mechaniville school for long jump.. it was awesome we beat them by one inches and then later on..i holded on to mike's arm adn i said screwed it mike just give me ur hand so i did that on and off for like 3 times and yet it was quite funny i had to admit...but 3 times mike still interlock my finger and i can feel that it was coming true becuz i know it came true already i swear it was so funny tho... then they called john, meg, jen, anne, and my anme down and there was a fat cheerleader was hitting on mike.. she was poking him and it was quite funny becuz she was hitting on him and she asked me who i was and i said " I'm Mike's gf and who're u?" OH Boy was she piss??? for sure i know she was... and then ppl start throwing foods adn drink at mike when they throw it at him...he started eating them up and when someone throw a big thing of ice cream he douge and so it hit teh fat cheerleader... and then she was whinning and wanting mike to take it off her and mike just like ignore her and it was so funny tho and i said " Miek when u getting teh ice-cream off her make sure u don't eat her fat too." then i woke up what a crazy dream huh??

I got a lot of presnts from all my friends and teh favorite presents of ine is havign sucha  great guy name MIKE... but yes my friend Elisa, Sum, Tori, beth, J.R.,irene,kathy and katie they all got me candies but i'm going to share them with tehose that i love deeply and yet they gave me candy just to get me fat they prolly thinks i'm so skinney that i need some weight to hole me down so i won't get blown away form teh winds.. i see how this is i see it i know u guys loves me so much that u won't me to be fat but i'll share all this yummy candies with teh one i love and guess who is that he is a person that meant the whole world toward me u prolly can't guess becuz...u have no idea whom i talking abt??

At Chem, Spencer, J.R., Pat W, kendrll and Maddie and I had this weird conversation about how this horny should have theyir hand check every 10 minutes i don't go in details for it becuz it contains sexual contact and so ...yeah i didn't know it and now my brian is having dirty minds in my sweet innocent brain..-sigh- but hey what can u say we learn thinsg new every day especially around ur friends becuz that will be the memory of us and this will be still between us until we all dead and bury under ground but it will always be with us.

Sum is going over Will's and if he get all so horny on her and do something toward her but after being immature about it hes going down i will frigging kill him for it and i know it will hurt sum so much if he only want her for sexual phyical contact and not a truely relationship oflove i will despite him if he even try i swear..and if he ever DARE to hurt her i swear he will never be able to see his future children at all becuz... MUHAHAHAHAHA Sum please just be safe...!!*praying* pray with me if u know sum!!

Then Mike and i had this weird arguement abt me going over his house... but.. i can't becuz a39a told anne's aunt not to let anne and i go anywhere except for jen's house and i understand that mike wants tohang out with me but don't he think that i want to hand out with him too... well if i could i wish i can hang out with him forever and ever.. i don't know i just think is stupid we fight over shits that is stupid Wait does that make sense...muhmm.. so confuse..>_< whatever i guess is a test between us and our relationship to be much stronger instead of like....BLAh and breaking apart.. i believe that we can be stronge as ionic bond HEY i'm  using chmistry terms.. wow thanks to mike.. but yet i believe argument will jsut make us care abt one and other more instead of like breaking us apart.. So blah to those taht even try to make us to be apart just to let them know it will never work.. becuz mike and i are so tight on each other like the sun adn the sky.. never can be apart...

John, mike's bf whom always steal mike away form me when i'm talking with him ERR GUR BO GUR BO !!!>__>"

coolestweirdo: gee takin mike away form me now huh??
Dogbert7414: yup
Dogbert7414: i t's my master evil plan
coolestweirdo: talking on teh phone for like 5 minutes
coolestweirdo: GOd
Dogbert7414: now more
coolestweirdo: i knew it i knew it

wow never knew mike was so attractive...O lala no wonder why i fall for it jk i fall for him becuz of whom he truely is instead of liek some guy that pretend some phony and not who they really are...and that's teh reason i chose him since he is like the character, simon in the noval of "The Lord OF The Flies".. yes he is a truth-speaker and he got killed for speaking teh truth....

Mike and i had this weird talk on the phone about what if one of us dead, let me tell u now " the most painest thing in earth are losing someone u love the most." and i know is true.. becuz i know whenever i have a nightmare abt losing someone i love deeply i know i waking up crying and i know even just a dream but someday it will come true.. it just hurts a lot and it takes a lot of times and courage to be heal.. and i swear if i ever lose mike like that i wouldn't be able to stand back up by my side even mike wants me to be tough without him it will be hard becuz i don't think he will want me to cy evryday and i belive that he will wnat me to be tough just as he is by my side..he definitly won't want me to be like hurt but he'll just watch me form heaven if any shits happen to us...i'm pretty sure he'll wnat me to stand up agian and walk...and fall again and get back up and by that time i'll be all hurt but who cares is for the love that u love.." it doesn't matter if we're not together forever, but cherish the timewe had together." in the dove chocolate that i gave mike, it said " Play the Reruns and then play them in your memory." it means keep the old memory together and let it be in ur mind forever and ever... i think if i explain that clearly...lolx...!!!so yes..i'll ttyl

love = everything and love= when nothing is expecting to be return..

< as christmas come around the corner, people asked me 7-thousand million times what i want for christmas and i keep telling them the same answer and the funny thing is i never get irrated..becuz the answer is " all i want is to be with u." > {----i made this quote up is it a master piecs...

i don't get why in chritsmas ppl are in the mall looking for what kind of gifts they should get for their love ones...but i guess that's the way to share love when u heart someone so much that u just want them to be happy and suprisly opening ur present... 

i hate today i had this crazy dream mor elike a nightmare i woke up from it and i know somehow is giving me the hint of jealous..i know it becuz it has something to deal with kenneth and mike and somehow kenneth and i were dating but after he pushes all my friend away from me and so i became a loner mom also want me to get marry with kenenth when i'm in love iwth mike already of course i won't and the only one that was in my heart was mike it was just so weird  and then mike and kenneth fight and i tried to stop them it didn't work so i woke up froma nightmare WOW that is a crazy dream....!! WOW

Then today when i return my book to teh library  after i returned the book i couldn't find the thing that meant so much to me and i asked anne if she know where it is and she said she putted it in the book that i returned i was like OMG no u fucking didn't and i cried becuz is something really important to me and i want it back and the reason she putted it in my book becuz she didn't want my aunt to sees it and she didn't even tell me when i return it.. OMG i tho myself was so stupid for not even checking it i seriously want to kill myself becuz is something that is really confidental and she just let it flow over her head why did she put in my book and not my draws what a fucking dumbass...??-sigh- i guess all i can do is just forgiving him or else... i'll be the one in pain and when i get on mike is not even on and i wonder where had he been.. i need him and hes not on... omg.. i'm so stupid please just killl me now and don't let all my stupidness spread all over the world

then my aunt and uncle treating me like i'm 3 and i hate that feelings and my uncle said all u can do is stay at home and do nothing for christmas screw it if i have to i will walk to somewhere that truely belong to me in it which means heaven perhaps it means i should kill myself somehow i don't know how but maybe i will fly...-sigh- perhaps i shouldn't talk like this and scare those that cares about me... BUT HEY... i won't becuz the person taht will in teh most pain is my mom and mike and other fiends that cares abt me... and i wouldn't even be the one taht is hurt and it would be all my friends... SRy i just love u guys too much and i promise i won't do such a silly thing like that i'm really sorry of even having a mind like that. slapping my self thank you for being there for me i need u all and thanks for being there for me when i need help

so that's my day went out pretty awkward as u can say...-sigh- hope tomorrow will be better

"don't lost hope" ~ mike

thanks for everything all my friends

Today was really fun.. i met mike and sum at the mall around 12 and... a39a and i went to teh mall around 1150 we sat down and wait.. Mike appear and then i shouted his name "MIKE!?!?" Then A39A gave me a look like there's no way hes MIKE.. then she left us and mike and i say down then summer came.. i gave her a hug and she hug me back... it was really cute.. mike just stand there and tho we're Les-Bo.. it was quite funny u actually have to see his face for that.. lolx!! then we went to watch happy feet.. it was fun even tho i watched teh second time perhaps is becuz....i'm with someone i like to be hang out with... then we went shopping.. i got someone a presnt guess who is that??? and yeah and i got a present too.. me so happy.. then we(mike and i) helped sum get will's present... lolx... well it was fun the days end with a marry go-around lolx!! it was fun meeting Mrs.Jakala again horray... she talked with a39a and i think she likes mike-ish not sure...well i can't believe my best friend betray me taht makes me kinda sad.. whatever...well i ttyl

tomorrow is the day that sum mike and i will hang out mostly is mike and me but sum is goin becuz i asked her to come along when my mom and my aunt is bitches won't let me date with guys ALONE since they think they will rape girls what can u say ?? they're just old fashion-mind that's all don't care much becuz they're stupid and they were saying shits how and what if  mike and i fall in love but too bad we're in love already.. they seriously think that u have to hang out a lot to fall in love but too abd mike and i are in love b4 they even knows.. nothing can break us apart unless we both do something stupid like cheating but i doubt it... becuz i know love = care we both cares abt how each other feels and i don't really think we're that dumb to hurt each other when we have the most perfectest person with each other (is perfectest even a word?? ) i don't know O gee well i don't know i don't really care what movie i'll be watching is long as i'm with mike who fucking cares?? i mean...i just can't wait.. becuz is gonna be great can't wait till see Aliyah whom is my future-sister-in-law she is ONLY 1 but still i can't wait till meet her she probably is the cutest baby girl in earth...but mostly can't wait to see my prince name Mike.. lolx well i have to go and i missed you a ton michael jakala u = everything i need... i don't need any present becuz ur the greatest present i'll ever need anyway.. love ya much infinity and beyond plus 1 just say damn it heart u much

i don't see why mom(s) have to make life so differcult is really annoying how they over protecting me and i don't like it i just don't get why do they always think guys will rape girls omg i hate mom(s) i make sure when i ahv kids they can hang out with guys all they want is long as i know them... what i mean is i have to meet them first..??? but yes my mom and my aunt are bitches i know they care abt me a lot but they're over protect-ive...omg i'm so piss.. but hey what can u say i have mike and it all makes it up for it.. can't wait till sunday... and the vacation break

I'm so happy right now becuz i did so well at school and i told my aunt and it means i have a bigger chance going to Mike's prom and be his date... O wait i believe we are dating already.. lolx Well it seems like i ahve a good chance of going if only i can keep my scores up which is really hard but hey anything is possible if u try.. i believ in my self and mostly MIKE... i know Mike will never be able to guess the suprise because it will be the coolest suprise haha i wonder how bad a suprise face he will but yet i will try no matter how hard i will fight like a warrior life is hard but i got u by myside so nothing really matter anymore.thank you for everything i'll cherish everything i got especially u <3 WAN6EVR michael thomas raphael jakala

Mike and i had this so foolish fight over nothing i cried last nigth for what he said to me it hurts more than anything in this whole universe... but then when he called me i was kinda like BLAH and didn't know what to do or say but then as teh conversation goes on mike and i started to talk more and i told him everything...and how i feels  so now every problem is solve and he was sorry for he hurted me... :) i'm really glad we get each other...becuz if i don't have mike my world will be like Hell...seriously i'm just glad i have this perfect guy to be in my world becuz he means everything to me. if mike was around and he probably hugged me so tight when i was crying and i was sad :(  lolx!!! thanks to god i got everyone i need around me and thanks so much :) GRIN well WAN6EVR..... ur the best and i sweat to god ur all that i need....WAN6EVR (infinity and beyond plus 1 ) haha beat u to it... beat u to the limit

    today is mike and me one month being with each other without breaking apart...mike and i were on the phone for like one hour-ish. then he had work... :( that makes me sad too.. but oh well..We actually get jealous for each other because we care about each other so much...haha.... :) jealousy = love <3 then he called me after he got out of work becuz he missed me so much he asked me " if he should go to the dance when i'm not there.?" i told him to go becuz i know he ditch john and chris a lot of times becuz of me and i really want him to have fun after a hard day of working...and i really want him to have fun when he can't have any with me :( i know that's really sad too... even ppl would ask me the question o why can't u hang out with ur bf??? i even asked myself if i'm a good gf at all?? becuz seriously IDK...i don't think hang out is much important when we have each other in hearts... that's all it counts... becuz that's a fact and i know is the truth when ppl hangs out too much and they know how their true ways of acting and they will just get all dispite for that person's habit so u know what i mean of course u don't becuz ur not mike and u can't read my mind  ONLY MIKE CAN??so yeah...I can tolerance for every thing mike does and no matter what.. mike and i don't get to hang out much but who fucking cares is mike and my problems.. so all u bitches can kiss my arse... BLAH!! mike and i have each other on the mind even e don't hang out much but HEY nothing can break us apart....SO BLAH... I LOVE U MIKE!! <3 WAN6EVR infinity and beyond plus 1 hah beat u to it and don't try to beat me BLAH.

 I HAVE A DRESS DOWN DAY TODAY.....YAY i don't know well today was a crazy day...this morning was pouring rain and i walked to CVS by myself with my lonely self i mean if mike was there he probably will go with me so i won't be alone but too abd hes not in my school.. lolx then at gym it was fun... and then at chem...i got a 90 and on math i got a 100... which was amazing and i believe it have something to do with MIKE... is all becuz of him all my school grade are improving and thanks to mike i actually can concentrate better at school. i called mike when i came home today around 330ish adn he wasn't home so that kinda make me sad :( but then he calle dme back around 420ish but then he had to go becuz he missed me so much.. which is good becuz i missed him a lot today too..he was telling me how he and ting ting hang out, i was a little jealous at first and then i get over it becuz i'm letting him down becuz i know we trusted it each other like 100%... i know i'm a bitch and i'm sry i'm one just becuz i care too much that's all and i don't want to lost u like forever...and that will hurt a lot if i lost u... becuz u meant so much to me.. but then i was actually got over it and i was telling myself that mike and ting ting are only friends and i'm the one that he likes and i know i was wrong which was a miracle i admit i was wrong.. i never admit the truth but today i faces myself and i found the truth of myself... i can see myself are really over control and is not good.. SORRY MIKE..<3 Sorry i did it again...-sigh- i'm working on it....is kinda hard not to be jealous when ur TAKEN already SORRY Mike!!!i can't believe myself like that....i'm found now i know i should've trust u more...Mike and i have this serious talks about cheating/ breaking up...not really that serious i asked him if he cheat on me would he tell me straight up or no... he said he won't tell me becuz he will never do that to hurt me like that so he won't have a chance to cheating behind me... thanks MIKE i feels so love <3<3 thanks Mike becuz of u i don't need heaven... but i'm just making a statement abt cheating and breaking up and don't be too sensitive about it ok.. i love u so much sorry we didn't get to talk long on the phone tonight but hey in our heart we know we love each other and that's all it matter... thanks for being there when i needed u it was pretty funny when anne let me and u listen to two men on the bed.. WwwwwHhhhhhOooaaAAa!! we're messed up for sure...WAN6EVR i love ya much... i tried to call Kenneth but he wasn't home -sigh- that makes me sad and yes Mike i'm waiting for u to be on and ur not on :( me so sad... well no matter what i love u much MIKE....WAN6EVR (infinity and beyond plus 1) and u can never beat me :D <3 love Jennifer

<3 Tsz Wai Ai Mite Ko and Mite Ko Ai Tsz Wai <3 

today is my 4th week anniversary with my prince....suprisinly i didn't kill him yet wow when did i turn into this violent i tho i was a little angel...Oh well... people can deal with me i guess.. Happy 4th week anniversary Mike...We're with ecah other for 4 weeks and which is 28 days and two more days is one month how awesome is this?? Sweet huh ?? yeah i was acting really hyper at school today don't know why O wait i had one bottle of water ( u know those water that have taste in it like different favors from the Dasani company.. LOLx) it had some sugar in it... and then at lunch i had a bottle of Iced teas...um... idk i'm weird but i think i did good at math like 100... well i saw Mike....in my dream and yes i love u mike wan6ever love ya much <3<3

        I called mike today and i'm really prof myself doing that... becuz the only reason i did it was becuz i missed him so much... i can see there's some competetion between mike and me...but no matter what i will fight till the end until mike totally giving up on our relationship.... but i doubt he will even do that at all.. so oh well.. we are together forever.. WAN6EVR michael

today is a sunday and life is pretty boring becuz i'm extremely bored... idk why all that i can think of is mike jakala perhaps hes all that is valueable to me anyway...O well i been telling ppl i found the biggest treasure in earth becuz is love and is not money....i found it so the biggest treasure are LOVE....thanks mike for everything.. i love u so much... WAN6EVR. MIke told me he didn't go to work yesterday becuz of me becuz he wanna found the gift for me... but he couldn't find it sry i wasn't acting normal in fronts of ur friends...i'm working on it tho.. LOLX... @ least my face didn't turn red when i met my future-mother-in-law... wink only mikes knows what am i talking abt...