We went on a date to watch scary movie.... DAMN IT... never ever watching a scary movie ever ever again.....and I MEAN IT....IT SCARES THE FUCK OUTTA ME....HOLY SHIT makes me really scare of old people..... so frighten  

seeing an old friend I told her about my recent.... she was saying things to cheer me up "dating a boy... a boy is desires for things, when they trying to get you, they have the new feeling, but as time goes on, the new feelings will be gone..."  I wonder if we'll just temporary or truly forever.. I really hope it lasts forever

I'm so glad i can talk to you about the troubles because i know it will help us communicate and understands each other better through spiritual...

愛令他們不斷一廂情願。
他們愛得辛苦，很累的時候也會繼續麻木---
雖然己經分了手，對方也決絕地告訴“沒有可能”。
他們認為這才是愛，愛應該是無止境，無底線。
只要一日在世也要盡力愛對方，
無論他愛不愛自己，他眼中有沒有自己。
這也成為留戀者的動力，繼續愛他，
繼續進行每天的生活。

朋友啊﹗別再這樣。
分手就是分手，過去就是過去，
世事不是像自己想像的美好。
舊情人復合的，不是沒有，
只是數量很少，機會很微。
為什麼不把自己眼界放遠一些﹖
總好過終日為他哭，為他傷心。

感情結束了，
你仍愛著他，不等於他沒有權利愛上別人。
你仍著緊他，不等於他的心一定要感激你，愛你。
他會繼續他的生活，結識別的異性，
繼續拍拖、結婚、生兒育女。
難道你要親眼看著他拖住別的女孩的手，
他在日記對現任女友打著“我愛你，兩年快樂”嗎﹖

主角已經不是你了，
沒有權利再次進入他的生活中。
當初他很愛你，沒錯，他也沒有騙你。
只不過一切都是當初，曾經。
不要這麼傻，放不下，看著他的一切，
心痛的只是自己。

I had this feelings before when I got broken heart... but I'm not afraid of the past anymore, because I have you to be there and protect me and always be there for me!!! To protect me from the wind and the rain.... So I'm so glad I have you to be with me... I hope we can be together forever, honestly, from heart!!! <3 Thanks for everything and thanks for giving me  a  chance to have you....!!!!

男孩們最愛說:[無論是什麽時候,我都會在你身邊陪伴你,無論發生什麽事,我都會等你.]
但,有誰可以保證,他們說的話是真的呢?
有很多男孩在說完這句話,
一個星期之後開始後悔,一個月之後開始反悔,一年之後開始遺忘,當心儀的女生找到一個她愛的人後,原來男生已經換了幾個女友,還給每一個女孩起了同樣的誓言.
我並不是說天下所有的男孩都只是會說不會實現,但真正等待而不變心的,又有多少呢?
前途和曾經最愛的女孩,他們選擇了前途遠走高飛而留下女孩在哭泣,面對其他女生的誘惑,他們選擇了有新鮮感的而放棄了曾經最愛的女孩,
在大家身邊的人當中,又有多少可以像黑影一樣默默等待而不變心呢?
或許你覺得在你身邊的已經是你的黑影,那請你好好珍惜,

好想寫書丫關於香港人文化--------- 衝紅燈，MTR more and more...

working is not as cheer up for me as before anymore... i don't think i have the heart for the job anymore... and then when i'm sitting down and having the kids hug me it made me skip a few heart beat.. kids really makes me happy... i swear i will have a lot of kids and then find a husband that will makes into a wonderful family...hehehe

work was depressing knowing that i have to substitue for other tutors... somewhat makes me angry *sigh*

today is the third week we been together... yay... hehehe the 22nd day... but it felt longer!! not going to work in the morning makes me feel somewhat living as a slow poke...

There's this amazing feelings I get when I'm with you and being there for me, I feel so secure and safe and I really like the ways you held my hands and when my hand is in your hand it felt very goods.....  I like being  with you!!!! hope i can have this lasts forever...

I was going to asked you this crazy question but you won't let me damn it asshole :P oh well.... perhaps i asked you later on... but there's so many questions i want to ask... but i guess i wouldn't  maybe you will asked me sometimes in the future....!!!!

今日唱K發覺有人愁有人開心!!唉!!開心態因為珍惜所擁有，愁因為失去重要既野!!

又見到hello kitty 哥哥!!!^^

working was bad and it makes me have no more motivation to do better and everything else.... i don't want to work anymore... and today i was so close to cry...and i can't believe how close i came off to cry...i was so hoping i can see you and be there and hug me ;)

今朝一起身，心情就5係咁好!!5開心因為冇人sms冇人打來叫醒我!!令到心情勁惡劣又落雨wo!!又冇人哄!!真係激鬼死啦!!

今日有好多5應該同好負面既野係我腦度飛過，不停咁唸你係5係5再鐘意我啦!!!又係度唸你係5係5再鍚我啦....令到我突然腦海一片空白... oh my god....

不過今日返工有好多野體會到同小朋友溝通就好似拍拖一樣!!今日體會到一個小朋友5食菜可以食一個午餐可以食成兩個鐘架!!勁丫!!!冇唸個小朋友可以咁硬頸!!就好似拍拖要哄下要鬧下要打下要鍚下!!亦見到一個大肚媽咪九月份生得一個BB女!!!好ok wo...!!! 突然我好想嫁得出

今日放工同屋企人食D野食埋飯同埋個devil cake 真係好好味!!不過都冇咩味皆因心情不太好!!你今日全日冇搵過我然而我係度唸你幾時會搵我呢不過你online 都有搵番我，算你啦!!

不過真係好5舒服丫，要食D藥先丫!!!頭嗚嗚下啦!!

2 more days... oh my lord... hahahaha

for little things i can think of big things and then for h.k. culture.... i want to write a book about how people cross the read while is red light, the mtr, and the focus on envionment, the teens, hong kong girl and boys, hahaha this is the topic i want to write in y book... but only in chinese to be funny... english couldn't express it *so*...

4 more days... we're going to drink during karaoke... Oh boy that is something can be expecting to !!

你是否也曾經因為‘某方面’的需要，

或因為想證明比你的‘兄弟們’以及全世界知，你在異性中的魅力，

或因為你覺得某位女士個樣或身材唔錯，所有想追下她，來解下悶，

之如此類的原因而去追求過某位女士？

假如無，我很替你高興，你是一個好男人！

假如有，我會好想同你講，

其實，真的不需要用這樣的方式來證明某些東西！

或解決某些需求！

因為兩性之間的尊重是很重要的！

我想大家都唔想做些傷害‘她人’的事吧！？

試想一想假如男人你是那件獵物，經歷這樣的事，你會有這樣子的感受？

i saw it on xanga

自由的認識不同的人，自由的約會不同的人，自由的愛上不同的人。
愛的時候，走在一起；不愛的時候，各不相欠的分開，不用付任何責任。
責任只會拖垮愛情，不會令愛情更美。
若因為與某人一起時候久了，覺得要結婚，要付責任，而不是因為愛而想照顧愛人的話。
這樣的婚不結也罷。
誰稀罕一段沒有愛情，只有責任的婚姻？
如果可以遇上更好更適合自己的人，而自己又結了婚的話，不怕自己後悔嗎？
對，愛情不能大過天﹗
若有人肯照顧自己的下半生，不是很幸福嗎？
別人眼中可能很幸福，但與一個自己不太愛的人一世，我替你悲哀。
愛情是，兩人互相愛著對方，自願為對方做一些令對方快樂的事，然後自己快樂。
戀愛是自由的，結不結婚不重要，只要大家都愛對方的話，一起生活便好了。
結婚只不過是錦上添花吧了﹗

 

i got the six marks jackpot... and then mom goes nut... so that's my day !!

wisdom teeth made me couldn't sleep at night... that is a pain in the ass...freak... then while i'm half awake and half asleep, a dream of my cousin and my aunts and uncle very weird... and crazy.. *sigh* Stupid Pig makes me mad... *gurrr**

so after getting yelled at my mood was super bad...but then i understand his perspectives... and i let go of the angriness because i understand mad at a person is making myself upset... so that's what i learned....

no comments... wow big reactions... *sigh*... sometimes worry too much !!! no words and comments to the situation....

Wow so shit... I got yelled at from XXX fucking A this is pissing me off so much... Piss off don't fucking bother me!!

yesterday night I had a good dream hehehe

scare the crap out of me tooday when you were asking mequestions about couples... and it scared me so bad

as i work today, I had to kept yelling at the kids and telling them what to do... *sigh* so my throat really hurt... and my day was very bad luck today, when i was ready going out for the bus it came early so i had to run for the bus.... secondly, when i get off the bus, it started to pour, so i got soaking wet, thirdly, when i went to the bank, to put some money, the machine broke down.... *sigh* 

Then I kept thinking of you but then i was hoping you would sms me but you didn't so that made me a little sad.... then when i called you at  lunch, you seems very busy....*sigh* you said you will called me back but at the end nothing happened....

So after work today, i saw a pair of key chain of pig and then I though of you and I both can keep one  It was so cute and when i saw it i couldn't help but just smiles  Awwah... I really like the pig key chain....  hehehehehe!!!!!

(something i think i will talk on my hand write diary)

so tired teaching kids but talking to you and know that you're internet is fixed so that makess me supper happy

waiting is happiness.... please enjoy the waiting process and then not mind waiting and not be anger because waiting will brings the happiness to you

I saw a story before about an coouple agrue, so then the boy left the girl behind in the restaurant, so the waiter came over and gave her a cup of tea with lemon in it and said wait for the lemon's taste just wait for things to happenes... so then as the girl get home she tried the same way and waited for 24 hours and then the boy showed up in her door and said my dear princess, i'm very sorry, please forgive me! So then this is the result of waiting and willing to wait for the results.. then i undersatnd life is just as lemon tea and it takes time to make into a cup of lemon tea that suits yourself.

But another story is that waiting too long could make you lose the person that you like and everything else just because you waited it... you might lost the friendship and the love that you want... so be careful.. my dear friend(s)

11 more days yay!!!

Today is a week of us being together!! The 8th Days

So today i worked when i was at work.. i see so many kids and one of the kid named kieran and he fell into the sewages and then when i try to put some alchonol on his injuries... he won't let me so he used his head to hit my head to get me away  But it didn't hurt because he is just a kid and from the math calucation i'm older than him for a cycle(12 years) Kids are always afraid and I always remember when i was a kid and i get hurt I would like the nurse not to have stint alchnol but the truth is only medicine can heal the germs... But as i se e all the kids that I teaches... They''re so cute I swear !!! I love them they're so cute... <3

So after worked I tho I could see my sweetheart, but I guess he didn't get the point that I get off at the time... so then I didnt get to see him but oh well... i think the mind is more matter... Someone told me once when you don't see something oftenly, you will cherish and expecting the future coming of seeing that person  

Then as I was talking to Mr. Hong we talked about boys like girls and girls like boys issue and he felt like he is waiting for ever for something that isn't going to happened but i said as long as you believe everything will turns out to be a happy ending... i know a lot of people and their feeling of having a happy ending and a good ending as in the fairytales are impossible... perhaps they are all grown up mind and think that nothing last forever.....But  in my opinion I don't believe it wouldn't happen  and i know if you believe and never give up hopes... there's always a prince and princess for you ... For love it is something you can give heavily and in the same time you will not received the things you paid... this is the amazing part of love... (one thing that you can do is not giving up to do things for the other person... yet knowing might not be able to received the same returns back but still willing to pay for it)

so you and i went for the movie today.(damn, you're a bully and kept grabbing my hand!!damn).. and it was fun having dinner with angel and jason but he is very shy and indeed we left them alone after desserts so this is my day...

Then at dinner, my brother told mom that i'm dating and so my mom was saying O well perhaps wait till after school is all done, but i mean things can't be stopped when it comes... i mean is long as I know my goal is to keep good grades and then things will be better and then school is first majority and dating is second !!! So i know my goal !!

琴晚一班人去swim跟住去左公園玩!!we're kids!!琴日勁無奈俾斌嫂叫左個花名!!不過都幾好聽丫!!

今朝好彩識醒靠你一成馬上遲到!!今朝好凍所以着牛仔褲真係豬左丫今日返工發現左自己打中文快左勁多囉!!哈哈!!放lunch 落街勁熱跟住攪到lunch 鮫想食只係食晒細佬氣5知點解係度發我脾氣勁無奈大小姐都要食人氣，5係嗎???不過有你哄番我咩都5緊要啦!!今日同班仔玩pictionary 話勁激動囉!!!有個令仔講左一句"斤斤計較5可以有真正既勝利! 嘩!!好一句名句丫!

原本放工後想去打藍籃球不過落雨!!人都crazy!!!不過結果約左洪生講intern D野!!跟住又落雨啦!!!落雨又令到我好5開心囉馬上令到心情由high to low...

好無奈丫!!食晒人氣!!飯都冇咩胃口食囉

睇到獨家試愛!!令我唸起現代男女既問題通通浮現晒出來囉!!! all the jealous, and then all the ague, and then all the truth... every issues of a couples always come out and everything else... it shows how people only see one side of life and then looks everything as a more negative way... so weird!!!

so tired after swimming... work tomorrow 9 till 5 call anyone!!!! miss you a lot

As I talked with you on msn about your working thing, and my hand writing is like a boy... I felt that you're depress But perhaps I'm wrong again like always... So I don't know.. sometimes I think boys rather hiding up pproblems than telling outward is somewhat similar toward japanese..

15 more days...

Dreaming seems like reaity and sometimes i'm lost in the dream as i think is reality... Is very weird...

last night we were smsing each other and i was so silly waiting for you to to reply me back but then ending up i waking up every one hour... DAMN IT hahahaha  well then this morning you didn't call me but then when i called you you kept cutting off what the heck?? hahahaha your phone is stupid (物似主人形)

P.S. I asked you the question and your answer is you want sandwiches or else no sandwiches.... gurrr.... not cool...  but I have the patience to wait for the answer... it better be a good answer or else i have to kill you

i had a good dream... but i will write in my diary so i can remember everything that happened!!!

yesterday's date was amazing(ly) good i like things are flowing slow and good ;) hehehe so yeah...

I was praying to cupid telling him i wish we can be together forever  I hope this isn't too greedy!!

17 more days.........

today was a good date!! So you called me as soon as i came home and i was getting ready to go on the computer, and open the AC and then suddenly you called me and said i'm at mei foo?? Oh my god... hahahaha so then i had to  go out and see you....so then as i was going up the lift, i saw you looking at me hahahaha ^^ so then we had to go to the mall and then we walked around to find the cards for my mom....

So then as we walked around, you suggests I called Angel (my dear sister) So we meet up in the food canteen, suddenly someone tapped my shoulder (guess who?) it was angel... so there's a lot of time that i pulled her away and we talk (writing in diary) hahahaha so we walked around the park to see about snakes and lizards, and turtles, hahaha so we wanted to throw the bread for the fishes, but we (4 of us) got warnings from the security... I don't understand whenever you and I went, we usually have no troubles....  so i kept saying they're very bad luck... hahaha then we went on stone road and play on little kids playground... hahaha that was really fun when we see kids running around on the stone road we're like wow he is fast (the reason is because he was wearing his sandels) we all laughed....

So then I went out to mei foo with you and then I rode west rail back and I didn't pick up my phone when mom called... I'm afraid she will say you're stupid!!! haahahahahaha (laughing crazy)

further infos i will write in my diary