This morning, I ordered breakfast for you... and as you see it was quite heavy for me, so you willing stand up and take the breakfast from me... that was  a plus...

Then during chinese lesson, I had to carried tables and seats for my examination, that was a pus too cause you're willing to take out the desks and chair for me...

After school, as we were walking down to the mtr station, it started to poured.. so you got out an umbrella to make sure I ain't getting wet.... a very nice bf... and wonerful bf...

Then we get to the Culture Centre, it was puring.. damn, we were getting soaking wet... of course you're the first boy that walked with me in the rain.... I hope there's many and many more memories of just me and you and is only belonging to you... sweetheart..i know is been a rough day and you're very tired , yet you stayed to hang out with me and going around places with me... you seems there's a lot of things in mind....

As I was coming back. to campus, I was thinking I might be taking your time out so much... as I'm making you became a bad students... and not having enough times to study... Honestly I don't mean to take out so many times of yours and making you not having anytime to study... I'm so sorry... for making you not having enough time to use... So I think from now on... I will make sure you finished your h.w. before we go out for a date...  So then I will not be in your way... Sometimes I think I'm a bad influences... affecting you for everything else... *sigh* bad jennifer....

Then for things in dating... I hope we ain't going too fast... because is only been for three months... honestly I don't want us to rush through for the relationship, because dating is a long term relationship not a short term for temporary and immediately...I truly want us to last forever... and for the rest of the life... every moments of being with you is amazing and perfect... but i wouldn't want us to be rushing and running out of freshness with each other so quickly... as you said.... i remembered you said that you focus on the mentally spirit communication... not rushing through as firewok...

Thanks for today being with me even when you're so tired...thanks for winking at me and shares my dinenr with me... and care and protects to me... I feel so lucky to have you !!!

having you is the luckiest thing that ever happened in my life...i love when you wink and flirt with me... and i love i'm the center of your world...

everyday being with you makes me so happy.. and i love the way when you looked at me and just focus all your concentration on me and everything else...being the center of your eyes make me feel the luckiest girl in the world...

love is all i need and you're all i need...

This morning, someone woke me up around 8 o'clock... damn... that is early.. and then suddenly putted the phone to great-aunt... out of a sudden i'm widely awake... XD then after breakfast... i made the egg sandwiches... and then i went out and luckily i knew how to walk to your house... phew that was so lucky of me... I'm super smart !! Then at first we tried to study but then we kept going off track.. i don't understand how you can study three subjects at a time.. too crazy and too genuius... makes me feel super stupid... then we played a little computer and then focus again on the studying...then we went down to walk around and swing in the mini park...  I'm sucha little kid and there's nothing you can do about it except just smile, laugh and play with me... (tee hee) Then I asked you to guess it i was a virgin or not..? you couldn't say anything else, just smile and avoid my question... then i think you're afraid to answer yes or not will somewhat makes me upset or be offensive... so you decide not to answer for my own good but i can tell you're so happy when you found out i'm !!......then i said we should get bubble tea... then on the way.. i ran into a pole hahahaha that was so funny... then afterward.. we eat and drink and sat on the slide's step and you said wow we're super romantic and somehow i got some soysauces on my jeans... damn it.. and so we were making joke as the period is here... and so you taunted me and said " see we shouldn't be romantic" (we both chuckle) I love it when you fed me the bubbles while we kissed.....after we were running around... and i said if you're dare to catch me.. so i was running around and thinking hahah you can never catch me... then you caught me one time and then you let go so i started to run again... then you caught me the second time and you said " I will never let you go for the rest of the life." Then I loved it when you hugged me in your arms and kissed me in the dark... so then we tried to ran back home... and then you started late and you still beat me not fair... (i guess because you have long legs and long body, totally not the skills...) So then we went home for computer, then i saw my blog's first page, as i asked you how did you find it... but then you lent over to kissed me so that i will stoping asking... but I'm still very curious when did you read my blog and when did you find it ? and how much things that you know about for what i typed... even my pasts!!!  So you been reading my blog... and then for diner, you're so quiet again... So after dinner, i pealed the pears for you (see I'm a wonderful perfect girlfriend) Just prasing my self...So as you sented me to the bus station.. i continously walking super slow like a snail... hehehe i love how you kissed me every steps i take and it makes me feel so sweet being in your arms... and i'm more sweet when i see you carrying all my heavy things for me... thanks... Then on the bus stop... I asked you if you want to know why I liked you and tell you straightly as I want us dating... but you didn't want to know.. so i will not say anything... hehehe Maybe i will write in letters for you...  (Then as i asked how you find my blog and you said because we have the faith of being together) (That made me super sweet) But I told you for may's rejection was because it was under so much stress and it nearly pushed me over the edge and i know it hurted you so bad for my mishaps.... and I'm just so glad that you're willing to forgive me and letting us having another chances of being together......... usually.. once boys are rejected they will moved on to another girl... and I'm just so glad that you gave you, me and us a chance of being together in the mid-july... So I'm fairly happy... Then as I was walking along the bridge I was thinking... I remembered you asked me something about my blog saying liking you as a friend and nothing more...and I remembered that time when you asked me... it was early june... so as i think of it now... you had been reading my blog since then??? I wonder and very curious...  anyway... for the process was difficult... and the result is we can be with the person that we want to cherish adn take care off....!!!! so that's all it mattered.... tonight is a good night... because of you... and seeing as we talked... i can feel the happiness within you... and definitly from the previous worry of not knowing how i will take things.... as super negative but things ending up good... XD sweetheart.... I really love you... and I hope for the rest of my lifetime can be with you... and hope and only hope for me to be Mrs. JN

This early morning, someone called me at 7 o'clock, damn that is friggin early.. so i picked not to answer.. too tired... but then you called me again... and i ran out to pick up the phone... XD hehehe listening to your phone call and voice make me feels super sweet.... then i had a strange dream... it was very awkward...makes me very upset and in the dream, it nearly made me cry... then as throughout the morning, you smsed me and the more you don't reply to me my mind is flowing faster and faster to kowloon bay.... I miss you babe... I feel i know you for a long time... and do you know every moment when i think of you i have good memory... and as i'm sitting down and think... you and my memory would showed up... then knowing your friends from high school makes me feel that I'm part of your past... and knowing your friend is what makes me get to know you even more...i wonder if you're romance type or the spice love.... hahaha just curious by the way this year, so many people are dating this year.. wonder.... how many pairs can last till the end...

Mr. Ng, i want to tell you i love being with you... and i think i'm the luckiest girl in this world because i have you... i'm hoping someone can wake me up before work... my family members are going out.. so i' left alone!!!

so after school today, we did math and then going out for the movie (the proposal) for dinner, we took forever to get food... >3< is all your fault i blame you... XD but you seems very tired and a little bit of unhappy...  But when we in the movie... damn the AC is frigging cool... so then you would always try to keep me warm... makes me super sweet... although you didn't want to speak for whatever is bothering you... in my mind i knew there's something wrong with you, i tried my best to cheer you up... but i don't think my wording helps, but i think my hugs and kisses helped a lot more..... sweetheart...i want you to know no matter what, i will always be here for you... although my words and action wouldn't do much, but i'll listen and i know you will tell me the troubles in your mind when the time is ready... and i'm not going to forces you to tell me about things bother you... because i know when you love someone, waitiing for something is a kind aof happiness.... Trust me, sweetheart, no matter what happens now and in the future, i will always stand by you, and never leave you alone or behind.... and i would tried my best to be there to support you...For all my words, I mean it all as for me being there to listen for your troubles, for me never leave you behind or alone, it is a lifetime promise... I will never break it... honestly, I want to be there for you when you're happy, i cann laugh with you, for you being sad, i can be there to make jokes to make you laugh, for you being mad, i can be there to calm you down and make you chuckle, for you facing difficulties, i can be there for you to walk through the trouble together... (because you're not one when you have me, this is dating... not one way, but indeed two ways directions), this is all my promises for you...  I love you, Mr. Pig (JNHS- abbreviation)  As each day goes, My feeling gets stronger and stronger for you and i'm looking forward toward the lifetime spenting with you and just only you...!!! Having you... i don't need anything else... you're all i need....

i'm so lucky having you and i'm glad having you in my life.. honestly...

having you is the greatest time of my life... and you're a precious gift... i swear losing you would be the last thing i ever want to happen... (which means i would never want to lose you).... i love your gentleness, and the way you kissed me, and protecting me and whisper i love you... that makes me super sweet... and i love it when you feed me with coconut jelly... one meaning 3 words, 8 letters.... I LOVE YOU

面試就猶如向女/男孩表白。即時受聘, 為你高興, 因為她/他接受了你的愛。

回家等消息, 為你擔心, 即是你並不是她/他最喜歡的那個, 同時她/他還有很多選擇。

上班的第一天, 就是彼此感情的開始, 你會既感到歡樂亦感到驚恐。

對於公司的要求, 你會像對你女友/男友向你所提出的要求般, 盡量遷就。

及後, 工作久了, 你和公司之間的了解, 越來越深, 你開始對自己的公司越來越多不滿, 情況猶如, 你開始發覺, 原來你與你的女友/男友, 其實有很多地方是合不來的。

漸漸地, 你不是開始見異思遷, 暗暗地尋找工作, 就是用百般籍口, 策劃離職。

最後, 家人問你, 為何做得好好的突然轉工, 你就對他們說：「我們是因了解而分開的！」

(I hope I can do this job for the rest of my life.. with you)

愛真係好神奇。它可以令人好開心，又可以令人好痛苦。

開心在一齊度過既日子，一起製造的甜蜜回憶。

痛苦在無休止的思念，無法相見的日子。

往往我地想起那些甜蜜回憶既時候，一方面會因為曾經擁有而感到溫馨，一方面又會因為失去了而感到傷心。

愛其實是把心完全地愛你所愛的那個他； 愛是不包括懷疑，只是信。

愛是去講你最想做的事給比對方知道, 而去一齊實現，愛是要全心全意，一心一意去為對方付出而不問回報。(this is my way of thinking... good good )

愛真係好簡單，好簡單‥‥

其實那些 「不在乎天長地久，只在乎曾經擁有。」 「不在乎曾經擁有，只在乎天長地久。」 都不是最重要，最重要的是‥‥ 珍惜眼前人 !

(copy from xanga)

10th week and 71st day!!!

so for accounting class, we sat near each other, and then you suddenly said if i can reorangize the alaphbet, i would put you and i together !! and oh my god that made me super sweet.. and yes this qoutes has in english and is from an english book too XD...

then after school, you walked with me to the mtr station.. and then i was thinking in my mind, just being with you makes me so happy, and i'm not asking more... but seeing you and being with you, i feel so happy... as i don't need anything else... that's how happy you made me felt...

Then while i was on the street to wait for the picture to be developed... i was reading the book " the references book for love" it made me think of you... and it said how boys and girls point of view while in a relationship and how a relationship break when the feeling is gone... but the only way to keep the feeling new and flash... is to trust and believe each other....

while i'm at the bus station, i suddenly felt as as each day goes on, i fall in love with you more and more... and then i realized when i spent time with you, i realized this is the precious gift in my life... thank you god for having you as the wonderful and perfect guy for me

"love is a two way direction"

As I was reading, i was thinking i should trust you more and let loss of you and her as beign friends... and i don't wnat to give you pressure for being friends with her... i want you to be happy to be with me and not havign any pressure.... remembering the time before dating, just a simple thing seems to be happy... honestly, sweetheart, i don't mind you being friends with her... is not that i'm jealous and i'm not... but i just don't want because of us make you lost the friendship... once again, just be careful your line!

你真的認為‥‥ 世上有真愛情嗎?

我相信友情，親情；但愛情，我過了幾次後，已經無法再信。

根據一個研究報告指出，愛情，其實是一個精神病，是類近強逼症，通常九成「患者」病徵會係年半至兩年之內消失。

就算沒看過這段新聞，也有很多人都知道愛情是無可能永久。

那麼你們、他們辛苦追求愛情是為了什麼?

也許會有人說：「很多情侶都已經一起三年、四年、五年了。」

但‥‥那真是愛嗎?

誰真的保證你是那一成的人?

誰又可以保證你旁邊的又是那一成的人?

情侶一起，可能只是延續病後的責任，又或是習慣性，根本不是愛。再說，什麼是愛?

女子失去了她的外貌，很多人說如果男子真的愛她的話，應該不計較。

那麼，失去了其中一種性格，例如‥‥ 她由內向變得開朗，很多人又會說真的愛她，應該不介意。

外貌改變了也愛，性格改變了也愛，有一天女子發生意外，容貌不同了，也失憶了，那麼愛還是不愛?

「真愛是沒條件」、「無論你變成點我都咁愛你」，聽都聽得多吧?

什麼條件也愛，你愛什麼?

在街上隨便一個也應該愛吧 !
 

反正，什麼條件也愛，變成點都愛。

你現在有的真是所謂真愛嗎? (copy from xanga)

謊話,無論是無意的,都一定會傷害彼此間感情,會打擊伴侶的安全感和對自己的信任.有意的更不在話下!

謊言被揭穿了,即使自己的說話有多動聽,感覺都會變得很假,一切都會變得很假,伴侶都自己都會有所保留.

如若要挽回對方對自己的信任,不要只用盡所有甜言蜜語,用行動去證明你真的有心改變,空口說白話是沒用的,若不能做到,請不要順口開河!

大家都知道謊言若然被揭穿了,對方會很傷心,對你有所質疑,對你的信心大減,同時他的安全感會大減.事無不可對人言,為什麼不坦坦白白,要隱瞞卻被揭穿?
有東東不能見光嗎?要知道紙包不住火,謊言被揭穿,然後又要花心機解釋,花時間去證明自己會有所改變,要為自己錯的作出補救,不覺得浪費時間和精神嗎?

早知是如此,為何當初要說謊話?請不要這樣傷害一段感情,請不要這樣傷害了對方,裂痕會被修補,但不是每次都成功,也不會是完全被修補.因為傷痕會刻心裡,成為「舊患」...

totally agree.. that's how my point of view is... nothing need to hide in between a dating relationship, because dating is pulling two person into as one person.

以下是在愛情的世界裡風暴消息：八號東北烈風或暴風信號現正懸掛，市民應盡量留在安全地方暫避。

不同風力，我們會使用不同的數字來代表。隨著風力增強，數字亦會隨之增加。在愛情的世界裡，也有著自己的一套風球系統。

一號戒備信號：有一異性正闖入心窩的領域，雖然並未造成心跳反應，但由於有機會繼續發展成強烈愛情風暴，所以必須小心觀察。

三號強風信號：愛情的威力已逐漸增強，成為一股曖昧的力量。雖然有不少愛情颱風只能摑到三號風球，但不排除愛情力量有進一步的增強，男女生應做好防風措施，以迎接未來更多的愛情挑戰。

八號烈風或暴風信號：曖昧已經發展成一股強烈的愛情風暴。在這熱戀的漩渦裡，男女雙方都享受著愛與被愛。即便如此，愛情亦有減弱可能，但隨著時間發展，不排除會改掛更高的愛情風球。

九號烈風或暴風信號：愛情的力量得到進一步的發展。雙方的關係漸趨穩固，雙方對彼此亦充滿信任，可謂拍拖的成熟期。

十號颶風信號：雖然沒有剛打八號風球時的期待感，亦沒有曖昧時的那種忐忑不安感，但此時的愛情已陞華至感情，亦是不少情侶決定結婚的一刻。許下終生的承諾，表示將在餘下的日子裡，把對方視為最重要的人。

愛情就如打風一樣，總是在最不能預料的情況下發生。假如只是不斷的掙扎在心跳與曖昧之間，又或者只想找一個人來喜歡，來佔據著自己的心靈，轉念一想，沒有颱風，雨過天青的日子，其實也不錯。( copy from xanga)

有看過geographic channel的人，就會發覺，生活在南極的企鵝，總是一雙一對的。

企鵝的愛情，浪漫得很。雄性企鵝為了追求中意的雌性，會跳進只有攝氏幾度的海水裡，在海底裡挑一塊石頭上來送給雌企鵝。越大的石頭，代表越深的誠意。無論海水有幾冷，雄企鵝依然會奮勇向前，把石頭送給最愛的異性。

當雌性接受了那塊定情的石頭後，兩隻企鵝就會依偎在一起生活。當他門誕下企鵝蛋後，雄企鵝和雌企鵝會輪流照顧企鵝蛋和覓食，儼如一對模範夫妻建立的小康之家。

反觀，在人類的愛情世界裡，為何還有那麼多的你虞我詐？師生戀，三角戀，師生三角戀.....錯綜複雜的關係裡，總有人為了自己的私心使人受傷。我們拍拖也不盡是為了繁衍後代（雖然那可以是熱戀的遺物），有人拍拖為了金錢，有的為了向ex報復，有的純粹為了剎那間的激情......既然頭腦簡單的企鵝尚能知道一夫一妻這個道理,為何被稱為萬物之靈的人類，卻總免不了在愛與被愛的漩渦裡掙扎？

說穿了，原來企鵝的愛情也很殘酷。當小企鵝一歲大的時候，企鵝群就會進入下一個繁殖期，牠的父母便會分開，再一次尋覓另一個愛侶。雄的會再一次奮不顧身的跳進冰水裡找石頭，而雌企鵝則會再一次擔起石頭大使的重任，尋找下一個他。

重新選定伴侶，忘掉舊愛，是大自然賦予牠們的天性。短暫的專一，誰也做得到。也許這個世界上沒有長情的企鵝，也沒有不變的愛；但我相信，我們的心思遠比企鵝來得慎密，情感要比任何一種動物來得細膩，所以即使在我們那變幻莫測的愛情世界裡，還是會找到真愛的。 (copy from xanga)

My feeling is... let thigns flow... and when the time is ready, no matter what nothing can separate the couples!!!

why desire for what others have and not cherish for what ownself have... jealous... how much and how many things you can be jealous... just be gald for what you have

男仔真係可以令你係天堂同地獄!!!一件事可以KO女仔，令佢甜到爆亦可令佢心碎到想死!!!有幾多男仔真係知佢地既一舉一動可以直接影響女仔既正常生活!?!?!?應該冇咩!!

............ 過去的19年及每一件事情令我自己的體驗

見到表姐嫁得出，真係替個表姐夫難過XD我勁衰囉!!but while i'm at the wedding i couldn't stop thinking of you, my other cousin said when you have a stable relationship, bring him to our side of the family and let us get to know him.. i couldn't stop laughing... hahha everyone was askign me when is my turn and i was like not now... school first and we all chuckle... but i'm sure when my family does see you they will be like wow jennifer you have a very good tasteXD because i picked wonderful bf...XD hehehe then they played a game of the bride searing the groom among the crowd, then my mind sparkle the mind of among in this world of people, you're searching for the one you want to be with for the rest of your life... sometimes... marriage seems like a nightmare of struggling divorces... and while i saw the new couple among the old couples... i realzied the path of marriage is hard and difficult and is not easy to walk through the whole lifetime...then is not because i was in the wedding and makes me have the dream of i want to be with you for the rest of the life is because for the things you done for me, protecting me, and most is i love you.. wish i can be with you forever... then yesterday going to your house was amazing fun XD hehehe next time i shall ko you but sweetheart i want to tell you i really love you

so today we had no shool and so i went out with the girls to kowllon bay for game time... haha it was fun... but one thing was i couldn't stop thinking of you...i kept thinking and missing you... awkward... i usually see you in school as well perhaps this is the saying of not seeing one day seems like three years...then today i could felt that you really miss me for some as you really miss seeing me and having me being around with you....i like the way you sms me a lot and speak with me on the phone.... someone told me that when i girl is speaking for something and the boys will misunderstand.... but i don't wish to see you misunderstand my meaning.... once again... i'm not jelaous or anything and this is true from heart... and i mean it... that's the end of the story... XD i trust you 100% and just be your true self... it would make things more happily, my sweetheart!!! all i ever wanted was seeing you're happy... and not asking for more...  sweetheart, just be yourself.... i'm happy when i'm with you or seeing you happy... and i really is in love with you... as i wished you're mine forever... and i mean it... hope god and cupid can help me to have this fairytale to be true... but of course need our struggling together in order to make things happened...  I hope you're the one that walk along the life time with me... once again, i appreciated your caring, gentleness, mind communicate, sweetness, understanding, willing to listen, for writing love letters toward me, blocking the wind, rain, and the sun for me and protect me when is needed, helped me lifting my heavy suitcases, senting me home to make sure i'm safe, hugging me in your strong arms, giving the sense of security, sharing drinks and food with me... and more and more.. and i really hope to created more memoris between us...  8 letters, 3 words, 1 meaning.....

這個風來得真係好，因為令我見到佢一心一意為我付出的樣子。當我地離開megabox大獲了，八號風。大獲了。So we walked in the street with no others being around... wow that moment i felt as the world has only left two of us... i like walking in the street with him just the two of us... and when i feel the wind is blowing on my side, i can feel that he blocks the wind for me.. so as we were crossing the road, the rain started to pour... even though we getting an umbrella it was too late.. we were soaking wet already... so then we just grabbed eahc other's hand to run across the road... but oh well.. we're still soaking wet... XD hahaha it was fun... and when you grabbed my hand to ran across the street... you have no idea how sweet my heart was... and i mean now that i'm thinking of it... it makes me super sweet.. and seeing you caring so much for me in my mind i think.. you're the one that i want to last forever in my life time... thank you god for giving me a great gift... he is a wonderful present and he is definitely the one that i can depends my whole life in... so my conclusion.. i will not be over thinking and over sensitive and to make you feel the invisible pressures.... i promise i will do my best and not making you or i feel upset... for your pressures... i will not be thinking negatively...thanks for everything and i really appreciated everything you do for me...!!!!

2 monthes.... i don't think he remembered what today is... (guys usually don't need to remember) So after breakfast and cutting hair, i went out to find him.. then we went ice-skate... for about 150 minutes, damn i fall so many times... but it was fun getting to know your friends better.... then you held my hand for at least 90 minutes... then we were ice-skating with each other and of course sometimes you get me the balances so i won't fall but unfounately, sometimes you fall... XD it was really funny when you get taunted by your friends.. friggin hilarious.. then afterward... we both were tired.. so i shared my PB&J with you... yummy... very tasty.... then afterward... we went for tea time... then i knew you wouldn't be eating with me so i taken out... then after all i though we were gonna say good bye since you have to have dinner with you friend, so i said just go, i will be fine... since i'm going to the book store, but you kept following me... i kept telling you that you will be late and you acted like you didn't care... of course i really would liked you stayed with me just hanging out... but i know onces a promise is a promise... so i ut on my own position., i wouldn't want my friend to ditched me for her / his dating partners... although it felt awkward knowing that you having dinner with her... i choose to act tough... but i'm sure you saw right through me that i was just acting to be tough... but what else can i do? telling you not to go and stayed with me, that's a very self-fish way... so after you left i stayed in the book store for about 15 more minutes extra... as i was reading... fucking A... it usually would make me felt better but it didn't so i left the store( i relaly don't know how should i feel... jealous or what? i feel so confused, if i'm too jealous, it would not be good for the relationships, and is not that i don't care... it just it was a dilema's position...as for myself i want you to be with me, as for a friend, shouldn't be ditching friends) [furthermore, it created awkward feelings for me, but i choose to take it all the negative feelings by myself]... didn't feel like reading or anything else...as i walked out the mall... it was pouring badly....damn it... it was lighting and thundering...damn it... i dont' have umbrella and i don't have you... CRAP.... but i didn't really care... so i ran out in the rain... damn.. i was soaking wet by the time i get the mtr station... my whole hair was wet and my dress was wet... holy shit... but honestly it felt very good with the rain falling on me... i just hope i don't get sick because right after i get soaking wet i walked right into the mall damn it the AC was frozen cold... blurrrr..... I like the feeling of the rain falling on me, because i felt as it is crying for my sadness and is doing the job for me...and there's a qoute from a book said " walking in the rain and others wouldn't know if you're crying or not.." it is from a book i read a long time ago.. and it suddenly popped up in my mind today... As i was on the bus by myself, i was thinking how should i feel about this...i hate the feeling of jealousy... makes me somewhat upset... i hate this feeling.. because the feeling of jealousy can destory a relationship completely... i'm so confused.... what the hell can i do? i know i shouldn't be jealous because it really is not a big thing to be jealous of... so.... my decision had made.....  for my further feelings... i perfer be hand written....

這就是愛嗎(歌詞)

你確定這就是愛嗎
真的愛我嗎
手牽著手漫步斜陽　就當作浪漫

兩個人眺望遠方
以爲愛的晴朗
當我回頭望　卻　已淚濕了眼眶

當夕陽變成星光　當愛情換了方向
你一如過往　對愛太緊張
但未來又會怎樣
未知的明天總讓我徬徨
誰給我力量

我不怕你　愛不愛我　
只害怕你　以為愛我
抓緊我　不算擁有　你總學不會放手

我不怕你　不懂愛我
只怕你　把習慣　當作愛
你猜不透　我要什麼

喔　你猜不透　我要什麼

我沖緊涼個緊係度唸: 拍拖其實係一個學問!!因為好多野係關乎兩個人之間例如要容忍對方要體諒對方要明白對方的所想尊重對方!!!總之好多好多啦!!多都數不到了!!!今日朝早就有一個電話吵醒我的美夢，係我既sweetheart 打來叫醒我!!!勁sweet....although i was so tired but i'm sure i was half awake... XD for him calling me is a very rare happens... i can't remember when was the last time he called me as my alarm clock.. as in my memory remembering... since school starts... we don't talk much on the phone anymore... but at least on the weekend... we can still used home phone to chat... i though we wouldn't have much topic to talk with each other especially when we're same classes... but i was wrong.. we always have so many different topics... i'm just glad we're an unique couples...!!!

Today is friday... yay the end of the week... so I can feel it, there's a strange feeling between me and you... as when we go and grabbed the lunch tickets... but as we were walking down the canteen... not more than three sentences goes back and forth...(during school time, I saw you and her were smsing each other back and forth, that suddenly made my heart sunk, i felt as you texting her more than you texted me and felt as she is your dating partner, but what am I? Sometimes I'm so confuse... I don't quite understand of why i felt that way...I hate the feeling of you making me felt as she is more important than me... I can't remember when was the last time you called to wake me up... or even having sweet message with me... I don't remember when was the last time you texted me frequently... seems like all the usual habits you do for me has already transfer to her... i'm so confused, wish i knew what is happening)  then... after school, you invited me to go the mall with you.. but as we were on the bus, i felt the time goes by slower than usual, just because we both act totally as friend behavior... then when we went to the mall and grabbed your books... the feeling was so weird as we were not dating at all... as you didn't really want to held my hand...or afraid of seeing similar faces from school... i'm very confused... >3< I wished you can tell me how you think and feel..... But then as we get off the mini van... you started playing with me, so then I though we were fine... but then it was time for us to leave... so then you really respect me for not kissing me or helding my hand until we're out of the tunnels... good deal...That was really good... I liked it a lot.. So then as we get off at KT, as we were walking.... and getting off in the middle of the road, you were so caring for me and helding my hang to make sure that i will not be hurted...Then we walked to your work place,(I asked you if you worried for the kids' parent and your boss seeing us holding hands, you said I don't care! and when i tried to removed my hands, you grabbed my hands even tighter as you didn't want to let go of me) and  so we saw one of the kids that you taught from last year...haha it was funny with him taunting you... it was hilarious  Then as we arrived at the place, I sat down at the sofa... hoping that you don't need to work... But 5 o'clock, you told me you had to work... so I waited till all the kids go into the classroom, then I sat for extra 5 minutes, so then I left  and as I was going off the elavotor... I felt the time was going very slowly...I couldn't help but dragged myself to walk slowly...as I turned around the corner, I saw a store... at first I wanted to drink something to cheer my self up... but then I ened up ordering a bowl of noodle. 5 minutes later, you called me saying you didn't have to work... my heart was so happy...so then I waited for you at the store... I don't think anyone would understand my mood at that moment... as not able to have something and then able to received it again... then we went to the mall(but as we were walking around in the mall, you were so busy replying or reading text message... I tried my best to turn around to the other side to make myself not feeling so bad... at least is a excuse to make myself feel as I dont' see whatever you're doing will make myself feels better... but the truth is no matter how much i pretened I don't see... the truth is I know what you're doing... and knows that you're actually replying her, furthermore, I felt the way is tiyr heart and mind is with her even your body is with me... i felt as I'm just a subsitutue for her... I felt as she is more important toward you... honestly, I don't wish to mind all your business or even of who you're friend with, because i understand the privacy... but can you not doing such thing as making me guessing and being suspective and being so not important .have you ever think how I feel? Honestly I don't care who is your friend or more... but can you not be so sneaky behind my back and thinks I don't know... but clearly I know what you're doing...I hate having the feeling as you cares for her more, but I know the truth is you care about me but just at the moment of texting makes me felt as I wasn't important... so i don't know how should I think??)... you were making me carrying your books ... friggin heavy..... then as we walked around the book store, you kept pulling my hair tie down... because you liked me with my hair down...so then you took both of my hair tie(s) so I had to search a bathroom fast and wuick and to calm my hair down so it is not so wavey and blah Then afterward we went to the game zone places, we played games.... I felt that suddenly our mind is more likely getting closer and closer... so after game zone, you had to go home, but i wouldn't let you go and so you couldn't get off the train  so then you been with me for 30 more minutes...as we were on the train or waiting for the train, I talked with you for what had been making me upset and about yesterday, and I told you but your reaction was just lisetning... as didn't really know how to say or what to say... but what I really concerns is how you think and feel...I want to have both of us understand each other more instead of just knowing each other at the same level... i want to know how you felt and I want us to able to share the deepest feeling and not having to held back... I don't want bad and negative feeling being hiden because it is bad for us and the relationship..... Before I left, I told you if there's anything please talk to me!! as a pair of couple, suppose dealing with everything happy or sad althogether, problems shouldn't be one deal with.... So this is my day... but i think I need to find you and talk about the issue of texting her, firstly, i'm not limited your social circle... and i understand in this worlld, is either a boy or girl to be friends, but perhaps a way of not making me felt so not important... Furthermore, My mind set if you needed to liked her, you would've done it a long time ago.. why wait till now? so I'm 100% trust you that you will not hurt me, and I believe that you're heart is directing toward me and not her.. so I been telling myself to believe this truth... Next month, we're moving out to a new house... not good... *sigh* 

女仔其實係為左男仔而生存因為無論打扮或任何事都係因為個男仔而去做!!例如：個男仔話我好鐘意你放底頭髮，我好鐘意你著裙，好多好多，個女仔就會好自然地為左個男仔打扮係為左一句讚美，但係男仔通常都忽略左女仔為佢地所做既事，男仔們，醒過來啦！！！欣賞下願意為你打扮的女仔啦！！一句讚美的說話足以令女仔像空中飛翔。女仔會因男仔一個動作一句說話足以令女仔心不在焉！！！所以話女仔係為左男仔而生存好似係古代遺留落來直至現在，就算話５係！！都已經變左係啦！！　（以上係個人立場同所觀察周圍的女仔）

This week is the second week of the school days... seems like every day's activity is school... and then studying in the campus...what the fuck is wrong with me??? I was planning to go out and hang out with you , i know you were mad tired... but i still followed you onto the bus... i sat near you as always... but this time different is i'm the outsider.... I was hoping to chat with you for a little while or even hang out with you... but then it was your time to get off... i said meanly and harshly toward you... get off the bus and saying words like is none of your business of where i'm going to...!?!?! so afterward... when you get off the bus, my eyes were very watery and then i realized... how much you meant to me and it was too late... for the words i had said... So afterward i get off the next bus stop... at first i was going to buy somethings... but then I didn't have the mood to walk anymore... so i rode the bus going home... X_x .... As i was waiting for the bus, i was thinking I shouldn't say such means words to you... and I really wanted to talk with you... but your home was caling you to go home...!!! So then I didn't really have time to walk around or talk with you... Since our relationships been exploded, I asked you if you would walk along the troubles with me... but it was an endless question...All i wanted you to do was hugging me and tell me don't be afraid... that's all i needed!!! Then I was thinking from the beginning of dating or even just being friends with you, I remember is long as I'm with you i'm happy... and there's nothing I need to worry.... and that's how I want the relationship to be happy and not asking for anything to return... well... that's it no more typing... but instead writing...