Find a guy, who calls you beautiful instead of hot.
Who calls you back when you hang up on him.
Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead.
Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.
Who holds your hand in front of his friends.
Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.
Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, "...that's her."

Unlucky me suddenly realize that I don't really have too many FRIENDS - that was my illusion in the past. 

Why I think so?  The story began with my sick father.  Friend A asked me to go on a concert but I told her I couldn't because I had to see my dad in hospital.  Then she told Friend B.  Friend B called me yesterday and I talked to her about my dad's condition.  I didn't expect any comforting word but I didn't expect such an answer too: Hey~!  All old people are like this ga la (hello, are you ok to say such things???)

During my down time, I hope to stay in the cave I dig so nothing or a few words are fine.  But I'm really upset, disappointed and pissed off with this kind of sayings. 

My recent encounters really prove: 相識滿天下，知己無幾人 ...

Last night, I had a very unpleasant dinner.  Originally, it's a dinner with an old friend, talking about unhappy things at work.  But on and on, it became a complaint of colleagues, and then finally ... a critique.

Maybe because I fully support freedom of speech, so many people around me who don't will criticize me.  Last night, we talk about people too care about the China market ... "they all say China has 1.3 billion population.  If each of them buy a can of Coke the profit will be huge.  But do you think anybody in China can afford a can of Coke and how many people is willing to pay for a can of Coke?"  Then, I started being criticized.  I was only saying my opinion and I didn't need your support.  Then I had a full "lesson", "you ought to see things further not on the surface (ha~ I wonder who is see the surface ...) and don't be too extreme ... (oh~ people having different opinions from yours are extreme ...)

Then it's further elaborated that China is having a big progress during the decade, "some worker, you know they may not be literated (who knows?) but they can do things so nice (please, think about the workers who work in the factory for the chinaware ... hand craft does not need much knowledge from book ga ...).  I'm OK to buy thing and eat with them (then did you position yourself more superior??? then why need to emphasize that eating with them would not be a problem???) 

I think she has already drilled into the game of office politics and she always warned me not to be cheated by the "good intention" of the colleagues ... can't other people be nice to you?  Oh~!  One more thing, seem that she was shocked to know that I'm sharing my bedroom with the nanny at home.  What is the big deal?  We are only sharing my room, not my bed, and most important, it's a SHE. 

Maybe I'm too shallow but I really don't want things to go to gar away.  The dinner last night brought me about indigestion.  

So from now on, I have 2 prohibited topics - religious belief (especially Catholics related) and China / office politics related.  Let's all talk about WIND, FLOWER, SNOW, MOON ...

Today, I had a long talk with my "neighbor" about my intention to resign.  We both are very disappointed with the company, the staff and ... everything. 

Sometimes, I think it is a bit unfair not to let my boss know how he / the company has let me down but what the point is to tell him?  He himself cannot change anything.  And most important, he is the main reason I want to go so can I tell him I want to go because of him?  I don't think so.

I think I better start my job hunting, but before that, I still have to work the work I need to work and ... worst of all I'm planning to visit India for operation review.

Ha~!  There may be more trips of training to do if I stay in the company:  Taiwan la, Thailand la ... but most of all I want to go to Korea ... but their operation is so good ...

- Updated at 5:15pm:  Just discussed with my boss that the trip will be postponed to May:  I wonder if I will still be here ... =P

親愛的我　尊貴的我　天使一個
我要再去插上快樂翅膀
清澈的我　只要躺過　總有天國
我已學過追憶　以後要再學淡忘

＊問過罵過被你傷過恨也沒結果　看著日過月過候鳥飛過樹也練正果
　(就當大個就要識過恨也沒結果　看著日過月過候鳥飛過樹也練正果)
　就唱勵志的歌　即使想發狂　還更想釋放
　憤怒過會害怕　怕為你又再失望(害你又再失望)
　憎我　至今都會憎你＊
　　
＃我早已換過花的香氣　為何融釀記憶污染自己
　祝我　和誰走到下世紀　從頭能頌讚　
　人的優美　為自己　別再憎恨你＃

親愛的我　尊貴的我　憎你一個
過去永遠過去　切勿再傻　ah
焦躁的我　只要燒過　總會堅壯
我已學過灰心　以後有一些感覺別感覺

Repeat＊() ＃

燒過　變火鳥在飛
躺過　變初雪在赤地
想愛護自己　da
假想繼續憎我　我不想再憎你

Repeat＃

想愛護自己　方知你是你

Just noted this from a conversation with my friend on MSN"

The nice men are ugly

The handsome men are not nice

The handsome and nice men are gay

The handsome, nice and heterosexual men are married

The men who are not so handsome but are nice with money think we are only after their money

The handsome men without money are after our money

The handsome men, who are not so nice and somewhat heterosexual don't think we are beautiful enough

The men who think we are beautiful, that are heterosexual, somewhat nice and have money are cowards

The men who are somewhat handsome, somewhat nice and have some money and thank God are heterosexual are shy and NEVER MAKE THE FIRST MOVE

The men who never make the first move, automatically lose interest on us when we take the initiative

NOW, WHO THE HELLL UNDERSTANDS MEN???

I laughed & burst to tears again ... so real ... Thanks Claire ...

昨晚看了「女口那話兒」，好真。自古以來女人都是羞人答答的，連對性事都要扮被動。電影中發過言的女人都把這個假面具棄掉。其中有人家的妻子，亦有人家的情婦，更有女同性戀者，和為性工作者發言 / 辯護的嚴月蓮女士 (我記得她的名字因為她在為性工作者發言 / 辯護時令人眩目的神彩)。她們都不再是男人的附屬品，而是一個獨立個體。我作為女性的一份子，實在與有榮焉 ...

在影片尾聲，導演黃真真訪問了一個4歲半的小女孩。黃問女孩知不知道她是如何出生的。她說：「媽媽說我是從水溝撿回來的，然後她把我塞進肚子裡。有一天她肚子痛，那我就出生了。」聽完了，我大笑。一來這是個真的很好笑的笑話，另一方面，世上已經少有這樣天真的孩子了 ...

(1)  I spent the whole day translating the article for the magazine.  So slow ... Working for this magazine really widens my horizon as I don't know there are so many good music and movies.  I know about them during my "research" - I have to know what they are when I'm translating them.  A very good learning process.

(2) I have been clearing my "outstanding" movies at home.  Today I watched "The Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy".  Actually I watched the BBC version some time ago but watching this in a movie version, it's anyother feeling.   Today I learnt about a "cold joke":

A (sounded fiercely) :  Freeze~!

B (sounded in low mood) : Freeze?  I'm not a refrigerator ...

(3)  I have made up my mind to return the mobile phone to PCCW as the network keeps down all the time that I have to re-search the channel again ang again and again ...

(4)  I have also made up my mind to buy a PSP as I played with my brother's, it's so interesting ... God~!  Help me save money faster ...

(5)  The movie viewing will continue tonight so hope I can handle the always hectic Step Class tomorrow ...

Good night~!

Sigh ... Spring again.  When everybody is celebrating the beginning of a new year with the arrival of Spring, I'm in a deep moment in the year.  I hate Spring being humid, foggy and ... dirty.  Imagine when there is drizzle throughout the day (not heavy rain but  ... rain drops keep falling on my head ...), the wet & muddy road ... yaah ~!

Another thing I hate about Spring is your laundry never get dried. 

I can't simply find any single reason that I like Spring ...

Happy Valentine's Day~!