今日是3月19日。舊年今日是我第一日在威院接受電療同化療，回想當日的感覺是很憂慮及忐忑不安的。因為知道'漫長'而辛苦的療程才剛剛展開，接著還要一星期五天都要往醫院'受苦'。亦惶恐日後的日子是怎麼樣''捱'的呢？心情亦是糟透了，可用'趺落谷底'來形容。

苦痛呢一年過咗去，一年後的今日，我已從'谷底'上返來了，也有種在死忘邊緣回來的感覺。呢個經歷令我對人生有些改觀，身邊的很多事情是還未完成或未能掌握控制，又或不知不覺間溜走了，亦不懂得珍惜原本一直在身旁的人和事。現在就學懂放鬆自己，保持心情開朗，不要再對無謂事宜而緊張，善待身邊的人和事，持著正面的人生態度。尤其對身邊給與我關懷同支持的人是有很多說不盡的謝意。我深信持著這些信念，病魔便不會回來找我了。

Today is March 19. On the same day last year, I was 1st day to hospital for the radiotheraphy and chemotheraphy treatment for my NPC.  Looking backward, I was worry and fidgety. Because I knew the very hard treatment was just commenced. A very long time I suffered the side effects by the treatments. The 5-days' in a week treatment pushed me to limit.  I was worried about the 'future' days as well. My mood was 'falling down into the well'.

However, the hardest year 2007 is over. I am now up from the well and feel that I have been walking around the death.  I changed my outlook on life after the illness.  Everything in my life is not under controlled of me. When I found there were a lot of matters which I never finish and to master, they have already left and gone. So, now I learnt how to accord good treatment not only to everything but also to everyone. Don't be angry at the pointlesses and also keep the positive way of life. I cherish the person who have shown their concern to me but I, a foolish do not know at all.  In view of that, the sickness will be far away from me.

今日同曦曦飲茶及踢球，因受傷風藥的影響，他的表現有些遲緩及懶得動的疲態，只玩了一會兒就要回家睡覺休息了。而我也要趕赴下午Janice的受洗儀式。雖然我不是基督徒，但係可與她分享這對她來說是非常重要的事也是一件很美的事情。想起來上一次去教會的時候是小學年代，如今相隔了這麼多年，當然仍有那份新鮮感。還是第一次看到浸禮儀式，有一種神聖及莊嚴肅穆的感覺。

I have the chinese tea with Hei hei today and kick the ball with him afterwards. He suffered the fever and took the medicine so that he showed his weary body. We played for a while only and I hurry to attend the baptism of Janice in kowloon.  Although I am not a christian, I really wanted to share her happiness on this rather important matter to her.  In my memory, there were many years I haven't gone to the christian activities, may be since I was in primary school.  To be apart for years, I felt it is novel to me as this was the first time I attended the baptism. The ceremony gave me the feeling celestially and with dignity.

今早懷著緊張的心情回醫院看驗血及正電子掃瞄的報告。平時每次等見醫生等個多小時不覺得這麼久，但係今日反而有渡日如年的感覺呢。許醫生說我的血液裡EB病毒水平已回落，在掃瞄報告內亦找不到有腫瘤及異常的跡象，雖是癌症第四期，亦未預測到有潛在的危機，但要3個月覆診一次及多加留意身體健康或變化，最重要還是要保持心情開朗，不要過份緊張病情。聽完醫生的說話，我就放下心頭的一塊大石了。即係話:我無事啦！

今天適逢曦曦媽的生日，真是雙喜臨門。下午我們便一同舉行慶祝活動──唱K，然後直落晚飯。今晚是這一年來睡得最甜的一晚。

I have an excited feeling when I came to meet Dr. Hui this morning. Because the blood test and the result of PET scan was being disclosed to me today.  I didn't feel the time going slow but this time I do. Until Dr. Hui said my blood test was shown the EB disease was dropped to a normal level, the PET scan did not show any tumors obviously. Although I suffered the 4th stage cancer, he couldn't forecast there is any unclear status to me. I was required to examine the health status evey 3 months. Dr. Hui advised me to pay extra attention on the change of my body status or variations, keep the happy mood always and don't be so tensed.  Not only happy and really impressed to hear Dr. Hui's advices and lay down the 'stone' of my heart. That's meant: I am OK la! My health resume normal.

As today is also Annie Ma's birthday, there is a double blessing! We went to Karaoke for celebration and then  followed by chiu chow food dinner.  Of course, tonight is the most sweetest to me.