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2006 年 6 月 8 日  星期四   陰天


Sleepy 星期四 不安 分類: 未分類

... ...

So glad that yesterday I got 2 books and a few video from Vicky.  One of the books is WRITTEN by Hugh Laurie ... It's so unfair.  How come there is such a perfect man in the world ... and the other books is about lesbian.  I know about this book from my translation assignment.  I always say this "voluntary work" widens my horizon ...

依然好眼瞓 ...

 



2006 年 6 月 5 日  星期一   晴天


我小器 鬱悶 分類: 未分類

一向都知我係個異常小器嘅人,但今日我竟然將小器apply喺公司啲人身上,因為我過咗一個完全無support嘅上晝。

手上有一個非常難攪嘅case,要同台灣個call。心惗我呢條小掃把點可以做decision,就叫埋老闆啦。點知大人佢要做另一個call,唔得閒喎 ... 唉 ... 我個department已經得我一個人,依家連呢少少嘅support都無,都唔知仲做嚟做乜 ...

唔知係咪今日個人有啲唔舒服,所以亂惗嘢,不過今日個人真係好down ... 好down ...

P.S. 阿大人話lunch完之後同我傾吓頭先個call。死啦~ 3點幾喇,佢大人仲做緊orientation,蹋即係叫我等啦 ... 唉~ 好似陳百強話過:等,寂寞到夜深 ...

P.S.S. 就嚟5點喇, 老闆大人仲未出嚟。睇嚟要等都唔知等到幾時,都係夠鐘就走人喇 ... 依家,就聽住80年代嘅band sound 等放工啦 ...

睇今日嘅blog姿,就知我「」到五顏六色啦 ...



2006 年 6 月 4 日  星期日   晴天


犯賤 不安 分類: 未分類

又嚟啦~ 我又喺一個人人歡樂嘅日子玩病喇~

琴晚10點開始,每一個鐘頭嘔一鑊金嘅(個胃想飛出嚟果種),再喺11點開始加埋肚瀉 ... 係明乎其實嘅「上吐下瀉」,直至半夜2點幾... 死未~

好唔容易可以瞓,又到7點要起身。今朝去買早餐比老豆老母食果陣,行快少少都想嘔。返嚟咪又瞓過,一直到12點幾。啱啱飲咗一杯水,個肚又喺度叫吓叫吓... 點亞,飲水都唔得 ...

想同屋企人「傾訴」我有幾慘,點知豆大人同我「返傾訴」講佢今朝都肚痛咗幾次 ... 死未 ... 我都話我無家庭溫暖啦 ... 想扮可憐都唔得 ...

好想死 ...



2006 年 6 月 3 日  星期六   陰天


Computer Keyboard 鬱悶 分類: 未分類

24 hours a day, and I spend over half of my time "working" with the computer keyboard.  I suddenly find great wisdom from it.

"Esp" - I can never escape from people and things I don't want to face.

"Pause" / "Break" - I can take a break from my work, but never from my family.

"Backspace" - Can I go back to the good old days when I didn't need to worry?

"Home" - I hope I do not have this button ...

"Shift" - Seems I'm on both shifts: home and office ...

"Ctrl" - Everything is OUT OF CONTROL ...



2006 年 6 月 2 日  星期五   晴天


Esc 分類: 未分類

I look at the desk top of my computer in office and my mind flew away -

The button on the top but my head's at the bottom -

When I press on it, everything on the screen goes away, but the trouble in my mind remains the same -

What am I gonna do???  How can I ESCAPE~???



2006 年 5 月 31 日  星期三   晴天


Tarot Reading - My LoveAffair 滿足 分類: 未分類

Superstitious as I am always visit & seek online tarot consultation (because it's free!) and tonight when I'm frustrated, I asked about my future love affair and found the following result:

how you feel about yourself now (Death)

Perhaps you feel that everything as you have known it is falling apart. Unexpected changes and turmoil, end of a job, end of a career, divorce or end of a relationship, recovering from a bereavement or fear of bereavement. Try not to worry too much, this time of absolute endings heralds a brand new beginning, a period of great transformation.

what you most want at this moment (The Moon)

The cards suggest Kawai, that what you most want at this time is some clarity and less of these confused emotions that leave you fearful and vulnerable. You want to know the outcome, because you are so unsure about how you feel. Use your intuition to guide you away from any deception and ride this out - it will turn out alright in the end. The Moon is a good omen if you are in a clandestine affair.

your fears (The Hanged Man)

You fear letting go, yet this place of limbo and indecision is not a good place to be. Are you being emotionally blackmailed so you don’t go? Don’t be the victim. Sometimes we have to have the strength to let go to attract new positive possibilities in our life.

what is going for you (The Star)

A wish come true, this is a time of good luck and fortune, perhaps after a period of struggle and heartache. Good health, possibly after a time of illness, and good fortune that will give you a new zest of life. If considering a new love affair, new job or career, or travel, then go for it. You may also receive a gift or gifts!

what is going against you (The Hermit)

You are at risk of doing something hasty out of impatience and rage. This is not a time for irrational and impulsive behaviour - don’t be cantankerous (if closer to old than young!) or arrogant and resentful (if closer to young than old!) Try and remain calm and let the rage go, take time to make a cool and collected decision. The Hermit signals a warning not to make hasty decisions.

outcome (The World)

Success, fulfillment and conclusion are near at hand - the successful outcome to a venture, satisfaction in a relationship and efforts rewarded. It is a culmination of events and indicates material wealth and greater spiritual awareness. You may choose to buy that dream house or a wonderfully fulfilling relationship is on offer, enjoy!

I don't quite understand.  Do you???



2006 年 5 月 30 日  星期二   晴天


電車男 vs 巴士女 vs 的士女 分類: 未分類

電視上有一個稀奇古怪的「電車男」,因為他有一點點自卑和自閉。小女子雖不自閉,但自卑卻不輕,固自譽為「巴士女」,因我經常和喜歡乘坐巴士。

最近我升格為「的士女」,因為最近經常乘坐的士: 出差時到機鐵站坐的士,出完差回家坐的士;帶老爸去看醫生坐的士,連下班回家因拿著太多的東西也坐的士。想當然,這全因是絕對有必要或可以向公司開數,否則天性算死草的我極不可能經常坐的士。

嘻~ 如果可以的話,可不可以再升格成飛機女 - 不是放人家飛機的那一種,而是經常坐飛機的那一種呢????



A tired night 滿足 分類: 未分類

A tired Monday night - that I made it myself.

After work I went to gym for the step class.  Although it's hard after a whole day's work, but it's fun and I sweated a lot.  Felt great though. 

Then I rushed home for the unfinished assignment which I promised to send to Joe today - thanks God he extended the deadline to midnight of Monday.  But still I missed it (so I'm still typing at 1am on Tuesday).

So damn tired but I want to finish this diary then go to bed.  Like Scarlet said in "Gone with the Wind":  "Tomorrow is another day".  Yeah ... the Dragon Boat Festival eve and I still have tons of file to work on ... Poor Michelle ...

 



2006 年 5 月 26 日  星期五   晴天


Movie 分類: 未分類

Recently watched 2 movies, both in cinema - The Da Vinci Code and The X-Men.  One is good and the other is ... funny.

The Da Vinci Code - I like the movie because I like Tom Hanks & Sean Reno.  The story is good, the scenary is great and all actors / actresses are good too.

The X-Men - It's a funny movie.  Although it's a comic, a scifi, but the movie is funny.  I have never imagined I laughed out loud many times in the movie. As always I like Wolverine and Cyclops, but in this last episode of the trilogy, Wolverine is not handsome any more and Cyclops is "dau gai"... then remaining, the most charming character is Magneto. Oh~ the most funniest thing is that after big fights in the 3 episodes of the trilogy, Magneto's power dies away so easily ... and so is the dead of Cyclops, and the losing power of Mystique and many other characters ... actually this is one of my favorite series of movie.

The next long waiting movie is "Poseidon"...



2006 年 5 月 25 日  星期四   晴天


I'm back~! 無奈 分類: 未分類

After a long day's flights (from Bangkok to KL then back to HK - thanks for the Thai Aiways), I'm home - finally.

Today when I woke up, I felt kind of loneliness.  After all these business trips in 2005, I should have got use to it.  But it's really weird today.  I thought and thought ... all these trips I went on the road all by myself (well, especially this time I left on a typhoon day), arriving a strange city alone, checking in a hotel and stay there all by myself and then came home alone.  Although I really do enjoy being alone, but the feeling is really strange.  Seems like that if I disappear suddenly, nobody would really care.  My family will "operate" as normal, my "friends" will be fine and I think the "most serious" problem is that nobody in the office can pick up my work immediately.  They will be in a panic for a while, but finally it will be fine.

I know I'm minimal but this feeling has never been so strong like this time.  Perhaps, I'm ready to vanish ...